confusions and conclusions

broken man

2012-02-06T10:59:00.000+08:00

ok this time i manage to write with a memorable melody. insyaallah sebab senang ingat.

hey, look at you

broken dreams and broken wings

hey, look at you

crying, kneeling on the ground

why are you crying?

you always tell me to be strong

those wounds are healing

everything's gonna be alright

hey, look at you

a broken man with a broken heart

hey, did you hear yourself?

cursing screaming to the wind

wake up now! broken man

broken heart cant be that bad

stand up now! broken man

run ahead and fly high

hey, look at you

fly high broken man

the case of the lost inspiration.

2012-02-04T05:42:00.001+08:00

hye readers.well, you may notice that i rarely post any good writings or articles lately. i know you do, because i noticed that too. all my recent posts are so damn boring. i admit it myself. its not that i was too busy or anything. but in fact,i was busy. and still busy. but im not the kind that stop doing what i like just because im busy. i'll do what i feel like doing. but the real thing that i can think is the reason is that, I HAVE LOST INSPIRATIONS.

if you have been reading my blog for a long time, you may have noticed that i do not prefer to post reports of my daily activities or recent events. except on my early posts. and also some of big events that made me think of something. i was more interested in posting ideas and things on my point of view. and also some poetry. but that, does not come to my mind on these recent times. and it really bugged me. i felt unproductive. my mind shrink every each day. UNINSPIRED!

no, dont get me wrong here. i dont need love to inspire me to write. its not because im lonely. but it felt like i lost something, but im not sure what it was. the feeling that drives me to think of ideas. the feeling to keep me thinking about things. things that most people ignored. the feeling to write those things down. the feeling to share to you dear readers. that sweet feeling keep on imagine things. imagine beautiful things. and put it all down to words. YUP! thats the feeling that i meant.

i thought of this right before i decided to post it here. so, i have analysed the problem and had found the source. but i dont really got to the roots. the real source that made that later source. okay, let me rephrase. i have analysed the situation and had found the problem that had been bugging me since i dont know when. but now, i need to find the source of the problem. i need to know what had been hindering me to be inspired. to write. to keep on thinking. to keep this old box of mine called brain to keep on working. never to stop thinking. and im not confident that i found one yet, except...hurmm..im guessing its the boring, exhausting, packed routine. but im not sure yet. but im hoping that it will be over soon. you guys dont heve to be worried about anything. its just an inside crisis. im having trouble with my own self.

wordless wednesday (nak jugak)

2012-02-02T02:09:00.000+08:00

my head is empty.might as well just shoot it off.

jumbled up

2012-01-29T16:21:00.000+08:00

theres a lot of things that i've been thinking and experiencing within these times.but i just couldnt put up some words to describe those thoughts and ideas of mine.they've been lingering for quite a while now.some here.some there.some bad.some good.unarranged and randomly come in and out.i dont know where to start or when it started.what i do know is that they are important and i felt like telling everyone.but of course no one would understand since i myself can sort it right.ok here are some of the keywords that maybe could help on the topics.

"since i was a kid, im not sure what i would become as an adult.well,everybody said doctor is the best choice.as i grow up i learned that im interested in human development.so i set my mind to become a psychologist or anything related to human behaviours.but now here i am.taking medicine.cause every common parents wanted their son to have a good job.but that doesnt matter cause i dont even care about this jobs craps.but now i do know what i really wanted from the start.if you know me well,i love the attention.and i love people to notice me.deep down inside i realised that all i wanted is to be remembered for the goods and qualities i have,after im long gone.and i really wanted to be someone who friends and families look up to.i look up for words to describe this kind of job.tadaaa!! IDOL.that is what i wanted to be.through life i learned that to be heard or notice,you have got to be somebody.so,my path studying medicine may be the right path for me.insyaallah."

"okay.this one is pretty exciting.im crossing off the list one of the things that i have always wanted to do.an acoustic performance.it felt really satisfying.doing things you dreamed to do.its like proving something important to the world.i sang, and i played bass.once is enough for me.but more will make me think again.but im not saying no. its 50-50.and i have decided to not leave playing bass as a hobby."

"remember when i said that i would stay single for five years?okay,i am so determined on that one.im going for it.not that it would be a burden during study times.but because i do not want to hurt feelings anymore.its haunting. i just want to wait till its time and marry right away the right girl.but it becomes hard when you start to see almost every girl in your class is attractive.and that is called desperate.but that temptation is normal and i can take care of it.its abnormal when you start to see only one or two girls shined among all those attractive girls.that, my friend ,is called attracted. and i cant just forget my promise to myself.so the dillemma.the drama.the feelings.the temptations.the patience.all mixed up.so girls,please stop being too attractive.im controlling myself.may God help me on this."

"well......thats it i think.all those that were lingering around my mind.it wasnt that much.fag me,complaining here and there.it was actually simple lah adib.adoiyai..."

promoting an old friend

2012-01-14T16:52:00.001+08:00

okay today i would like to share with you guys a blog of a friend of mine.the guy that inspires me to start blogging a long time ago.to start writing.recently he just made a new blog account.he writes in Malay.the language is so much easy and enjoy to be read.time sekolah,karangan BM power ni bhai.he always have crazy ideas and views on things.my man right here always the popular one.since school days.i dont know why?and how he did it?i heard that he is getting popular on twitter too.well,i didnt know that since im not a twitter person.but his blog page proves it.4 days after he created that account,he gained 52 followers.now,83!!dont beleive me?check it yourself.

http://abelljefrry.blogspot.com/

show that smile

2012-01-14T16:40:00.000+08:00

this is a song for my future daughter (or son). in times of his/her sorrow i'll sing this to him/her. but the problem is, I FORGOT THE MELODY! LOL

hey there my little girl

woould you please smile for me?

i dont think i can walk this world

if you hide it away from me

c/o

you know you have a great big smile

so why are you still crying?

please dont keep it to yourself

and just show the world that smile

now now my little princess

dont you cry anymore

you know that im here with you

to wipe those tears away for you

dont you worry a thing

close your eyes and have a sweet dream

of candy house and bunnies

may your smile wakes you up

im fine

2012-01-14T16:31:00.003+08:00

its getting warm

though the breeze is cold

i wonder why

the night is dark

but the stars are bright

oh why

you dont have to tell me why

because you know i know

when you're here beside me

its fine, its fine

the birds are sleeping

to the crickets' singing

the silence is creepy

but im fine, im fine

you dont have to tell me why

because you know i know

when you're here beside me

its fine, its fine

WTF????

2011-12-21T15:56:00.000+08:00

this letter is especially to whom controlling the movement of the bus.like WTF guys??seriously,WHAT THE FUCK??you think you all are bosses?princesses?please..be a little considerate.if youre late then youre late.WALK!!if you wanna be soooo early,dont wait for the bus.WALK!!let the bus move as usual.THE STANDARD TIME.the bus was not meant just for you guys.others paid as well.but others did not act like that.they WALK if they had to.you are so LUCKY to have the bus waiting for you before it moves to pick up others.youre LUCKY enough to be at the first checkpoint.then,think of the others.dah dapat senang,jangan susahkan orang lain.everyone wants to be early.

and yeah,one more thing.let it be any lecturers raichur or oswald,dont pick.boleh pula yang lecturer ni tak boleh lambat,so kena gerak awal biar lah orang lain tertinggal bus pon.janji aku tak kena marah sebab lambat.(and the usual time was never late pon.sempat je sampai awal kalau ikut usual time).lecturer ni tak apa.lambat gila babi pon tak apa.biar lah orang lain tunggu sampai berjanggut baru gerak pon tak apa.FUCK THAT CRAP!!tak ikhlas langsung datang awal sebab tak nak kena marah je.bukan sebab hormat lecturer or semangat nak belajar.please lah..dah lambat,lambat je lah.nak cepat WALK!

im not pointing fingers to anybody (but felt like shoving a finger to that anybody),cause i dont know the real situation.but this morning and yesterday's really got me pissed off.memang aku selalu lambat and my time management is really messed up tapi at least aku lambat sorang sorang.tak melibatkan orang lain.tak menyusahkan orang lain.excuse for my language style here.dont like it?i dont mind.cause you did not mind of others as well.

flattered

2011-12-18T05:55:00.000+08:00

a friend of mine told me that i look like this dude here.ppfftt..

going for a change?

2011-12-18T05:00:00.000+08:00

its hard isnt it?having friends not agreeing with the changes you made.hearing whispers talking bad about you.being accused for being a hypocrite.friends make fun of your hard efforts.always end up in a dilemma.between "still going for it no matter what" and "naahh,the old me is fine".most of the time we chose the second option.to make sure everything is secure.everything we owned will always still be there.at that point we felt that our life wasnt so bad.and at that time we felt so secure and comfortable.so we decided to live as usual.our normal routine.our old bad habits.too afraid to cross the line.the line that could possibly lead us to a better life.being a better person.just a step more.to a better future.but that step is so difficult to be taken.to lift your feet across that border is very hard.your leg felt so heavy.is it worthit?

if you happened to have those problems,heres the tips.but remember,what youre about to read is just for general scenarios.for more specific problems,you can consult with someone you trust or maybe you can drop a comment or any method you prefer.good luck!

well,firstly do tell people around you especially your friend about the change youre about to attempt.this is important for a lot of reasons.first,you can avoid people to accuse you for being a hypocrite and talking bad things about you like "eleh,bajet baik je","time exam baru je dan dan nak gi surau","eleh,baik kejap je tu".and also to avoid annoying repeating questions like "apsal kau lain je ni?","ada prob ke?","kau tak sihat ke?","kau ni dah kenapa?" and so on and so forth.your friends should know this so that they can avoid making fun of you and start to support you.it really sucks when even the closest persons are mocking your efforts.

sometimes you will face some irritating situations where people discourage you,either conciously or unconciously.exhibit A; "tak yah lah berhenti rokok.susah kot.aku dah try dah.".exhibit B "kau tak pakai tudung lagi cantik.rambut kau smart kot".exhibit C; "ngade je nak gi kelas.tak penting pun kelas tu.tak payah skema sangat lah".well,all these are common sentences that i can classify them as negative peer pressure sentences.for your advantages,utilise these.make them as your motivation in pursuing your goals.treat them as challenges.prove them wrong.show them the great results of your efforts and visions.you dont wanna face them empty handed right?kene bahan nanti weh.

secondly,take at least a person for you to look up to.an idol.its best be persons near you.your friends.your relatives.your teachers.it brings you closer to reality.you knew them well.this will give you the idea "we are not so different.so i can do as good as him.no,better!".but you can too take stars or popular idols to be set as examples.great and famous successful people.like "one day im going to be damn rich like Donald Trump".or even "one day im going to be like Bono.do some charities.helping people.and still have a band.".great eh?!yup!!really great one.

thirdly,think positive.by being positive im not just saying being positive to yourself.yeah its important.damn important!build self confidence.focus on your goals.dont afraid to take the risk.blah blah blah..what im saying here is to think positive towards others as well.sometimes we have the tendency to think that people dont like us as we are changing.then we start to build forts against those people.alienating ourselves.stop socializing.then starts the hatred.you hate everyone.everything they do.you start to think that everything they do is to sabotage you.well stop!!dont do that.youre destroying yourself.think positive.make friends.so that they can support you.you will need their help at some points.and dont mock weird people too much.they may act weird because they're on a changing track as well.similar as you are right now.the important point here is to make friends.

next,is to take your time.dont rush.you only will stress yourself out.these things are complicated.its not simple.a change can be permanently implemented into your life.not just for a day or two.take it slowly.you dont want people to be shocked by your sudden change.feed them slowly.let them adapt to the new you.bit by bit.everyone will be happy.you.your friends.everyone.

on your journey of changing, many obstacles will await you.peer pressure.self desire.trends.love life.economy.and they are badass bitches.you have to have these kinds of expectations.and you have to be ready to face them.they will seduce you astray.son,it aint gonna be easy i tell you.stick to the path you chose.watch some inspiring movies.biographies.read logical books that build ideas and minds.not novel of fantasies.read wisdom quotes by great people.ideas and inspirations can come from anywhere.from boring old biographies and documentaries to awesome Black Sabbath's song lyrics.use them as fuels for your spirit.

next...well im out of words.so just here.try them if you want to.we heard of these methods many times but we cant see whats the point of doing them.so im giving you the most humble and simple elaborations so that you can see deeper as a normal human being.not from a motivators' points of view.you will only know it when you try it.believe me.GOOD LUCK!!

heres a song related.have a tune to its lyrics.its about the life of straight edge punk.straight edge punk is a kind of punk that only holds the idea of punk.but they are clean.they avoid free sex,alcohol,drugs and smokes.some of them are vegans.if you ask me,i think its damn hard to live like that as a punk.im no punk for sure.but i can imagine.any doubt about the lyrics,just ask.A GREAT SONG!!

LEGENDARY

2011-12-05T09:50:00.002+08:00

okay cant sleep now after a stupid nightmare i had just now.it was like a chain of nightmares.a nightmare after another nightmare.no,to be more precise; a nightmare in another nightmare.so that makes layerrs of nightmares actually.but the real point here is i cant sleep and so i decided to write a post that i promised you guys earlier.after a brief study for tomorrow's topics that is.so...

the holiday trip to Goa was fantastic.3 days and 2 nights.i'd rather just summarise the highlights of each day so it wouldnt be too bored to be read.

DAY 1

the journey from Belgaum to Goa was just fine.i slept for almost half the journey.i woke up wet because of sweat.it was a bit warm.there were about 16 of us.from here we were travelling exactly like we had planned earlier.as we reached Goa the plan was ruined.badly.by a moron greedy travel agent.we planned to spend our holiday in Calangute.we said that we already had a place to spend the night.but then he said that the place that we were heading was no fun.only tempes go there.not a tourist spot.and he claimed that he will guide us to a better place for holiday.and guess what?we were FUCKED!badly!there was nothing there to wooaah about.the shops there close at 10pm.the beach is very short i could run across it without a gasp.(tipu!!but it is short.but not that short).there was zero entertainment.fortunately the homestay was fine.

some of us joined the bus trip provided by the tourist guide agent.azlan,alhafiz,iwadh and i decided to rent bikes.just so that we can go anywhere easier.that night we went out to look for some fun.in searching of a pool centre perhaps.we failed.see how boring is the place?but i find that that night was sort of funny.fareed,arief,hanif and akhya joined us with their bikes.we were chased by a dog.actually only hafiz and i were chased.the dog was following us.so hafiz tried to scare it away by honking the horn.but then it got shocked and startes to show his teeth and chased us.and the dog was really fast.almost got my leg.stupid dog!now more phobia towards dog.another funny thing happened when one of the bike got empty tank.and the petrol station was closed by that time.fortunately,some of these guys knew a lot about bikes.we channeled some of the fuel from another bike into the tank.

meanwhile one of us (no need to say name laa ok?haha) had a trouble controlling his bowel suddenly.without the bike able to start how can we find a public toilet maa??you may not get the actual picture but it was damn funny lah.the sweat that rolled down his cheeks.the paled face of struggling to control himself.the dilemma of whether to throw or keep.the effort and spirit to hold.the thrill of making the decision of being a true tempe or a noble Malaysian.all of that in his hand to decide.making a very important decision in a very tense yet short period.all that happened in less than 5 minutes.can you feel what im talking about here?all of that?you know what i mean right?yup!!all those thrill in less than 5 minutes and ended with a very wise decision.so one of us had to help this poor guy out and send him quickly back to our homestay residency.and it was all well to that fella.and we (the others) had a fun time.we were bursting into tears.tears of happiness with a slight loud LOL that night.

DAY 2

we went to Baga Beach.very near to the place that we were supposed to be heading in the first place.and it was SUPER AWESOME!!!it was like Brazil.the shops,the beach,the mat salehs,the scenery,the music,the water.awesome lah weh!the best beach vacation i ever had.we had a lot of fun.we played some of the water sports too.and wasnt so bad nor expensive.it was a reasonable price.

but the awful thing happened that day was....(drum roll please) I LOST MY PANTS!!there.ive said it.and so the journey of walking to Aidil's homestay with only my tshirt and my boxer on began.lucky i was that we were on the beach.everybody was showing showing something.so it wasnt that humiliated.i bought a new pair of short and wore them right away.

we went for lunch at a restaurant in Calangute.SOUZA LOBO.the price was paid at a reasonable rate suit with its one of a kind indian taste of seafood.sadly,the employees of the restaurant had a very bad manner for such a lovely restaurant.such a waste of money paying those bastard lazy tempes.they had no ethique codes in serving their customers.you shouldnt let your customer wondering at the counter with a clueless face while you were bullshitting with your friends about nothing important.and that customer was standing less than a metre from where you were standing.and dont you run away or turn away when a customer is calling you to make an order or for assists.if you dont wanna work then quit mafaka!!perangai tempe habis!and i thought indians had a very good manner in customer service.i still remember the quote i used to read whenever i visit a clinic as a child.it was stated by Mahatma Gandhi.

"A customer is the most important visitor on our premises. he is not dependent on us. We are dependent on him. He is not an interruption in our work. He is the purpose of it. He is not an outsider in our business. He is part of it. We are not doing him a favor by

serving him. He is doing us a favor by giving us an opportunity to do so"

DAY 3

the last day was a bit boring.it was just a bus trip to an old chapel.the chapel was built by the

portuguese.it was a large building and very old.lots of manuscripts old paintings scrabbled on the floor,ceiling and the wall.they were written in Portuguese and i bet it stated lots and lots of important historical fact.and the sad part is,the translations were absent.what kind of museum or exhibition that only provide the grand historical items without a single fact stated.and most of the tempe in Goa are Christians.stupid right??no point of preserving the holy building lah.better open it for someone to pray. rather than closing it to prevent Christians to pray then reopen for a meaningless display.such a waste of historical value.

but the final day ended with a funny thrill.on our way returning the bikes,four of us (hafiz,iwadh,azlan and i) almost got caught by the police for not wearing helmet.but we managed to run away.i never did thought that the police would take any action.the earlier two days were just fine.and we were just in the nearby town.even the tempe there told us only to wear helmet on highways.the odd thing happened was suddenly you can find a lot of policemen wandering around the town.why?suddenly?and the answer would be....there was an important event on that day.and maybe some VIPs were there.india ooohh india.true story.

there you go!you can find some of the pictures from the trip later on my facebook.been waiting for my friends to tag me in them. :) or you can always check this awesome blogsite.credit to aidil.

http://diskodansabergumbira.blogspot.com/2011/12/goa-lagi.html

oh,just trying something new.wanna see a magic trick?

PUFF!!

TADAA!!

ooooohhh wait wait! one more!!

PUFF!!

TADAA!!

you got what i mean?? :)

exhausted with a bit of awesomeness

2011-12-05T02:26:00.000+08:00

lots of things to write about the AWESOME trip to GOA.but too tired to write.maybe later.

but it was LEGEN....wait for it....

DARY!!!

yup!

LEGENDARY!!

the 100th and the artist

2011-11-30T18:01:00.000+08:00

so ive posted an advertisement on facebook about the mini contest that i made.100th follower will get a prize.just to round up the number of my follower to a perfect 100.the respond was very fast.not even after an hour,the 100th seat was filled.and so the winner is...drum roll please..

THIS DUDE HERE!!

yeah!he's the winner.for the prize,im going to introduce him to you guys.a little promoting session perhaps.okay,we start with his name,RASHDAN ROSLAN.he is a kelantanese.he's one of my amazing colleagues here in USM KLE.what i can tell you about him is,he is a very committed person.if you give him a task.he would readily accept it.and he would love and insist in helping friends.thats why he is the head of the welfare bureau of the student community here.other than his fabulous talent in singing (suara macam Anuar Zain bhai..."lelaki ini yang selalu...".lupa lirik haha),he is a damn smart fella lah this one.what brain he got pon i dont know lah.can see that he is very determined to be a doctor.wish you all the best lah bro.urrmmm,what more eh?he loves F1.and i think hes the only guy that love F1 here.sorry rashdan.owh and he also is very active in facebook.almost every hour got status update one maa..heres his blog page if you want to know him better.

www.rashoasis.blogspot.com

facebook:

http://www.facebook.com/rashoasis?sk=info

and heres another great singer here in USM KLE.presenting....

jeng jeng jeng!Deanna Reesha!she sang on television once and is very active covering songs on youtube.

you can subscribe if you want to.heres a sample.

a love letter to a DAD called BABAH

2011-11-30T17:29:00.000+08:00

dear babah

ive been hoping,and still hoping

that you noticed how short the time we had spent together

despite the 20 years that ive been living

we were separated,there was between us a great wide river

i never did blame you

the problem was me,not you

the matter was to me never clear

but always i know how anxious you were

dear babah

those 20 years of my life were wasted

but again in me you never had lost faith

a simple thank would never worth

for the deeds and love that you had poured

never did see what you were doing

cant believe how stupid i was back then,what was i thinking?

20 years without a clue?

where was i?sniffing glue?

dear babah

im deeply sorry for what i did

for all the lies and the things that ive said

what happened months earlier really broke your heart

i noticed the crack but to say sorry and i love you was really hard

cant turn back time cant change the past

but i'll get it all back someday,i'll try my best

how i wished that you would know

im trying my best here up until now

if you do read this,please dont get awkward

just writing this letter to pour my heart out

the words that were buried long

long enough for me to become headstrong

for i have sinned,so please do forgive me

i am your son,thanks for loving me.

THE BEST BABAH IN THE WORLD

I HOPE IT IS NOT TOO LATE TO REALISE THAT NOW

intelligence VS mentality

2011-11-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

whiile writing this post,i am in a state of pissed off.pissed off with most of the tempe here.it seems that every second my hatred towards local Indian here grows faster than a morula grows into a blastocyst.not that im being a racist and just simply hate them because they are indian.i got indian friends back in Malaysia.but they all are fine to me.in fact,not just fine.they are great.great in any way.its just that the tempe here act in a way that you wont like it.believe me.you might even hate them.

and guess what?i think i just found the source of the problem here.if you observe,these tempe fellers are very intelligent.i heard from seniors of mine that they can memorise what they learnt after read it once.once!!smart eh?yup!!they are.they gained intelligence through academics and through learning.

the problem is,they are narrow minded and have a very low mentality.which i can assume to be almost uncivilised and obselete.but not all of them.some of them with wider point of view and more experiences gained are really well mannered and opened.while the others,ppfftt!!ARROGANT!there are sure quite a large number of academics around here.but they too act like morons.in my opinion based on my humble observations their mentality that hindered them from being a normal human being.they were stucked in the same place that had been hindering them from developments.and unfortunately that place is the place they live.all of the vast corruptions among their politicians had caused their people to become declined while others are reaching for the moon.im not talking about knowledge here.im talking about mentality.the way they view things in their own self assessment.

i give an example.in a store nearby our campus.the subject; a very handsome,well-dressed,nerdy looking tempe that i think is quite intelligent and well educated.might be a degree holder or even higher.and even living in a higher cast.situation; i was queuing in a line at the cash register.a woman was in front of me.it was her turn to pay her groceries.i got out of the line to take some things i forgot.and when i was back,guess what happened??tett!! youre wrong!! the subject did not cut my line.he actually intelligently yet unpolitely just stand in front of the pity woman.with a poker face of course. -__- hoping with a pathetic face that the cashier will scan his items while that lady's items were not yet finish scanned.i was like WTF!!again, WHAT THE FUCK DUDE!!? i meant it.do you see what i meant?

okay,another example.uuurrrmmm...no!theres no other example that i can remember right this moment.cause im damn pissed lah.but actually theres more.really.im not bluffing.and most of them are relating to their manners in queuing.

so,to Malaysians.you should be grateful and proud that our government is not hindering the importance of developing our mind and mentality.thats why the government is trying so hard to send us students to study abroad though our economy was not really at a peak.its not that local universities are not good.its just that they wanted us to see and learn how people from other country solve problems.how they live.learn they culture and thinking skills.dont want us to be katak bawah tempurung.the wild world out there is not just about what we learnt through our textbooks.that is called knowledge.but to build minds that comes with wise and brilliant opinions,thats a different thing.experiences would help.and somehow this post makes me proud of Malaysia.

MALAYSIA BOLEH!!

LOL

2011-11-21T02:21:00.000+08:00

officially my new favourite song.LOLed so hard the moment the song started.imagine laughing for the whole 4 minutes.you have got to listen to this mafaka.

told ya :)

funny day

2011-11-19T19:28:00.000+08:00

i noticed that there were quite numerous (more than usual) significant sarcastic yet funny things happened today.

first,during our mock SSA test just now.okay now,SSA stands for Spot Slide Assessment.it was held in the MDL,the place where we usually had our histology session by handling microscopes and observing all sorts of slides of cells and tissues which until now i cant differentiate which is which cause they all look damn same lah.the point is,all of these times(until right after the exam started) i really thought that the exam is going to be based on those confusing slides that we observed during histology.well duuuh,obviously it said Spot Slide Assessment.and it was held in the MDL.see up there?SLIDE!!so i easily assumed that they will show us pictures of the slides of the cells on the monitor,and we are going to label them or name the cells.that will absolutely going to be an easy test,RIGHT??just memorize the names and structures and the functions.no need of deep comprehension.just read and remember here and there,and DONE! but then,it went wrong.SLIDE does not mean the SLIDE OF THE CELLS.it meant SLIDE SHOW OF POWERPOINT PICTURES.a series of slides showing a diagram or chart for five minutes on each slide.and we will need to answer the questions based on those diagrams.ooowwwh i seeeee...a note to self.SSA is not a histology examination.

next,as we were on the bus going back to hostel we saw a local Indian (TEMPE) took a leak.well its a normal thing to see tempe peeing on the side of the street or buildings or walls.(dont ever lean on any wall in India) but this time,its different.before i start telling you the funny part i would like to share with you a thing that i find wonderful in india.here,they paint almost every wall with nice pictures.murals.most of them in belgaum,they got religious murals on the walls.lots of murals reflecting the image of cultural events,traditional musical instruments and also the image of their GODS.i think you know what happened next by now.no??okay,i tell you.that fellow tempe is actually taking a leak right on the mural portraying the image og HIS GOD!!WTF??no,sorry.WHAT THE FUCK DUDE??thats your god for godsake.(sake of my god i mean) but still,no respect at all.uncivilised!! but at least it was funny.and sarcastic too.and rare.

just now,i walked to the mini mart to get me an eraser.i had to walk pass through a small roundabout in our campus.theres always a security guard standing by the roundabout.and then,the SOUND came.PPRREEETT!! and it ended with a poker face of that guard.amd i was like 8 metres away from him.but still that sounded like he was exactly beside me.and so i walked with my heart bursting inside laughing so hard that it should have been the loudest i had today.

i hope that more funny things happen today.the day is not over yet.god,please give me more entertainment. :)

for now,enjoy this song from Beastie Boys.and also,i recommend you to go to this link.very funny!!seriously hillarious!! http://9gag.com/

why do we believe?

2011-11-11T02:08:00.000+08:00

recently, i bought a book; Future Babble.written by Dan Gardner.basically,it tells about why expert predictions fail and why we believe them anyway.heres a few paragraph from chapter 1 of the book that i would love to share with you guys.

tree of LOVE

2011-10-29T04:13:00.001+08:00

i've been keeping this idea for a long time.just too shy to talk about it.some might think this kind of post is a bit girlie.but what im about to tell you here is something very general.it doesnt apply only to a couply lovey dovey love.love is for everyone.even for a single person.like ME myself.love towards family and friends and almost anything that relates to love.

im a logical person.so i think of something that could happen to majority of us.not every one experienced sweet love story like in the fairy tale, or even love at first sight,or found their soulmate shining in a crowd.so heres my idea of love.a series of growing mixed feelings.just like the life cycle of a plant that you learned in school.

it starts with a glimpse of a very little tinie tiny feeling of INTEREST towards another person.just like implanting a SEED into the soil,the feeling implanted into that person.

then,courage takes control of your body to make the first move.or even second.well,it doesnt really matter.after a while,if you keep on WATER the seed with deep CARE and FERTILISE it with sweet sweet PASSION from your heart,it will eventually starts to GROW.the first green shoot starts to leap upwards out from the soil,reaching for sunlight.slowly it grows.larger and larger every single day.taller and taller crawling towards the sky.you cant wait for it to become a great strong healthy tree.you start to talk to him/her every single day.seeing her/him makes you SMILE.every single day.never tired of waiting.

eventually,after a period of lovely time,the small seed has grown to a very tall TREE.a TREE OF LOVE.heavy with green leaves that catches any eye passing by.colourful flowers grow like snow on a roof of a house after hitted by a snowstorm.fruits hanging here and there.enough for a whole village to be full for weeks.you are so happy with what you have worked for.so very madly deeply in love.nothing could ever tear that tree of love down.

if those up there happen to you,then youre a very very LUCKY person.but BEWARE!just like trees,love can DIE too.anything can goes wrong if youre not careful.pests,deforestation,disease,soil eruption,soil pollution.all of those things can kill your tree.your tree of love.and END UP like this.

am i right?my theory can be approved to be correct,RIGHT?to some people perhaps.but an idea is an idea.its up to you to believe it or not.its just something that i thought and i would gladly share with you guys.if you have planted any seed,just make sure to take a very good care of it. :) spread the LOVE yawww...

india

2011-09-20T04:10:00.000+08:00

now im in india.everything here is super great!the hostel itself amazed me on the first day.the moment i stepped into the building i was like "what the f**k??is this a hostel or a HOTEL?".we were served with snacks upon the arrival.our enormous luggages were carried by workers here.they carried them to the front of our rooms.giloo kan??they even got an elevator here.

the food they served here is always fantastic.delicious and we can even add some more if we wish to.isnt that great?

the prices of things here are also cheaper than we could find in Malaysia.imagine fresh fruit juice or milkshakes are only about rm1.40.back in Malaysia we can only find them at a minimum price of rm2.50.thats a lot of different.am i right?

other students here are also friendly and not so nerdy.kira boleh masuk lah..memang kaw tim la wa cakap lu.

the climate here is not as i imagine india would be.its way cooler than Malaysia.the wind blows cold.just like genting highland or cameron highland.but the sun still comes out bright to warm us.but still,it is cold here.the problem is,our clothes can only be dried for two days.but look at the bright side.at least my armpits would not be so wet if i rush for classes. :)

all in all,it is just fine here in india.so dont worry folks.im good here.but pray for my study please. :)

p/s: you can always check out photos i had taken here.just check out my fb profile.adib arifin

rindu :(

2011-09-20T03:55:00.000+08:00

tak pernah pernah emel aku guna.sekarang ni baru berguna emel aku.haha.sekarang dah ada broadband baru lah senang sikit nak buat apa pun.wifi sini macam tak ikhlas je nak bagi aku connect.barulah boleh tulis emel banyak banyak kan? :)

sealed lips

2011-08-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

this lips wont open to say i love you

but this heart is always overwhelmed

with warm feelings towards you

these lips wont open to say i miss you

but this mind filled with sweet memories of you

lingering all over the place

enough!its not about my ego

these lips only wait for the right time

so that such beautiful words do not spilled and wasted

like water flowing through the dirty old drain

flowing keeping it wet

yet stinks and leaves stains

cant you wait a little?

these words will make you happy

one day

cause its not just empty words

they fall one by one

like the rain

and by rainbow they are followed

and those are not just words

but a guarantee i just gave.

these lips are dry

thirst for yours to touch

waiting,and keep on waiting

waiting

for your touch

even just for a while

waiting

to gain what thats worth for the wait

waiting

for the right time to say

I LOVE YOU!

specially written for nura aen :)

jadilah sempurna..atau cuba bermati-matian

2011-07-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

thanks all..di sini aku nak ulas sedikit tentang previous post aku.harap betul2 faham.sebab aku pun tk berapa puas hati dengan penulisan post tu.macam tak jelas dari apa yang aku cuba nak sampaikan sebenarnya.

sebenarnya aku nak deny phrase "nobody's perfect" sebab phrase ni memundurkan orang.membuat orang sentiasa dalam keadaan selesa tanpa mencuba dan senang putus asa.contoh,tak dapat gred bagus di sekolah."tak apa,walaupun aku kacak mungkin aku tak berapa pandai.tak ada orang sempurna.".contoh aja lah.seorang lelaki sering dimarahi teman wanitanya kerana sering lupa tarikh-tarikh penting seperti hari ulangtahun mereka.lelaki tu sering beri alasan "u tahu kan i ni pelupa.bukan sengaja.tak ada orang sempurna".tapi mereka dalam contaoh yang diberi tadi tak pernah melakukan sebarang improvasi kerana sering bersandarkan pada phrase tadi.TAK ADA ORANG SEMPURNA.

seseorang yang sempurna pun tidak lahir dalam keadaan sempurna secara keseluruhannya khususnya sikap mereka.mereka belajar dari yang sempurna untuk menjadi sempurna.sama seperti umat Islam belajar dari sikap Rasulullah s.a.w.. meniru perbuatan yang dianggap baik dan sempurna.

jadi jelaslah kesempurnaan boleh dikecapi jika ada usaha dan kesedaran. mengejar kesempurnaan akan dapat memperbaiki diri kita. dari negatif ke positif.

tetapi,jika anda tak mahu menjadi sempurna dan selesa dengan diri anda sekarang,jangan halang orang lain berbuat demikian.mereka ada matlamat dan kemahuan sendiri. jangan sesuka hati memanggil orang dengan gelaran hipokrit atau sebagainya. mereka mungkin dalam proses memperbaiki diri dan masih tidak dapat menyesuikan diri lagi. anda tidak tahu apa yang mereka alami.

untuk bermain lagu sebegini sempurna perlukan latihan yang berulang.sama lah konsepnya

be perfect..or die trying

2011-07-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

remember when you were so nervous for an interview?remember your first date with a girl or a boy you liked?you felt so warm.too warm.you were sweating like a pig.you were thinking so hard on whether or not he or she or the interviewer would have any interest in you.you were thinking on how would you speak.how would you walk.this would be too casual.that would be too cool.few hours or the day before,you asked your friend all this questions.and they replied "just be yourself".

yeah,its easy for a Mr. Perfect to be himself.hes perfect.but what should a Mr. Not-so-perfect do?

from what i learned in business and political matters happening around me,a successful businessman or politician would do almost anything to make his clients or followers believe him.even lying.but theres limits in lying.too much lies could widen the range of getting caught.too little lies would never get the interest and excitement in the client.

well,as good consumers,we were taught to check the quality and price of the product that we would like to buy.we have the right to do so.nobody can deny that.its the same for the situation i gave in the first paragraph.if you want to be a perfect candidate for the inteviewer to choose or a perfect love partner,then you have to be perfect in their eyes.you are the product.and they are the consumer.they have the right to choose the best product for them.

what is the realtionship between lying and being perfect you may ask.they are totally different things.perfect is good.but lying is bad.but sweet.okay,heres the thing.but i have to warn you.this is only for a non-perfect being to be read.for the people that believe they are not perfect but deep inside they wanted to be a better person because they dreamt of perfectness.so,to be chosen or be seen as the perfect candidate,you have to lie a bit.you have to put your true self aside.but only,and only your negative side.you have to achieve the perfectness.act to be perfect eventhough youre not.lie to yourself.but dont get me wrong.dont brag like youre someone perfect.a perfect person is a person that almost everyone likes.so he must be a good person.thats why you cant brag.it would only make you looked like a stucked up asshole.

the whole point is,if you want to be a perfect person,act like one.try to achieve that.try hard to be perfect.and soon you will be perfect as it will be built inside of you as a habbit.in Islam,we were taught to follow the Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h. because he is perfect.ikut sunnah dapat pahala.if you follow the sunnah,you are actually shaping your soul,your iman. its actually the same concept here if you noticed.

been thinking.need help.drop some comments.

2011-07-16T05:08:00.001+08:00

ive been reading all my older posts.starting from my first post.well what i have found are:

1) they sounded a bit funny and jiwang
2) too long
3) a bit girly and nerdy
4) too personal

but i also found this:

5) i had regular readers who also managed to drop comments
6) they somehow love the posts
7) they let me know that someone is reading these craps
8) im not sure about this, but they seemed to stop reading my newer posts

i care about my readers. i enjoy to know that they read and like my posts. so here's the thing. i would love to hear your (readers) comments about my posts. what you like about it and what you dont. and what kind of post that you would like me to write and the style. should i keep it or should i change it. all of this just to improve my writings and enlighten you guys to keep on reading. thanks :)

choose your words wisely..or else!!

2011-07-14T00:36:00.001+08:00

i read the news today.and i found this:

PAS SEKONGKOL DENGAN MUSUH ISLAM

(http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2011&dt=0713&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Dalam_Negeri&pg=dn_19.htm)

this awful insensitive statement was said by Prof Madya Noor Deris (Ahli Jawatankuasa Dewan Ulama Pas Pusat). ok,frankly i dont give a shit about this two-parties political war.but the sad thing about this statement is that he used such ugly words in such wrong places. as a malaysian muslim, i noticed that the term "musuh Islam" is very irritating. what would you expect your non-muslim friends to react if they read that headline?worse,how would you react if they read it while you were beside them?wouldnt it be awkward?isnt that a bit harsh for him to call your friends as the enemy?

according to his statement, musuh islam refers to the non-muslim. i dont think that it is wise nor clever to use that term in a multi-racial country. he said that PAS is supporting the "musuh Islam" to overthrow the Islamic government (which refers to Malaysian government). since when did Malaysia is governed by Islamic rules thoroughly?we dont practice hukum hudud.they said that it would be too cruel and our country is a multi-racial country. it would not bring any good in such kind of country. then u claim Malaysia is governed by Islamic rules??we do not use Islamic ways to govern our country. we have been using British's governing system the whole time.since the beginning. until now. a muslim king of our country (YDP Agong) does not symbolise anything about Islamic government if we still use the system that we inherited from our colonialist.

so the moral of the story here is,choose your words wisely.especially when your in a press conference. others would understand it differently. for this case, the non-muslim would read it as a war starter from the muslim or malay. and that would bring a grave danger to Malaysia.

again,i would like to stress that i am not supporting any side of this stupid child-like political war. this is just what i observe as a young Malaysian :)

banana chocolate milk shake

2011-07-11T16:17:00.001+08:00

this is a recipe for you guys to try.if youre interested that is.its very easy though.

for every single serving,all you need is:

1) 3/4 glass of cold fresh milk
2) a banana (sliced)
3) 2 spoons of vico/milo/or anything similar
4) ice cubes (if you like it crunchy)

mix all of the ingredients in a blender and simply switch the blender on for a few seconds, and there you have it.very simple and easy to make.try it yaww!! :)

ANDA DITIMPA MUSIBAH??MARI BERDOA!!

2011-07-08T04:06:00.000+08:00

ini hari wa mau celita sikit pasal agama.

Islam taught us that doa is the way we communicate with Allah.the time when we ask favors to Allah as He is the Almighty Allah. Allah will help those who are not arrogant to ask anything from Him. asking from Him means we are weak compared to Him. means we obey. means we admit our low position as His slaves. never ever think or feel that you are too jahil to doa. dont ever think that Allah wont accept your doa. dont ever say "ala,aku semayang pun tak full,nak doa macam mana". that only makes you even farther from Him. He does not choose. so dont ever give up praying to Him.

in Islam, the concept of doa implies praying,work and tawakal. but the most of us only pray and tawakal. to my non-muslim friends, tawakal means to be surrendered for whatever the results of our efforts and prayers. tawakal is a very good thing. good for us to stay calm and to worry less. it is a way that Islam taught us to stay positive. to train us to always be positive. think positive. act positive. live positive.

on the other hand, logically, doa means to motivate ourselves. reminding ourselves of the goals we wished to achieve. but sadly, muslims nowadays dont know the real concept of doa. they just simply pray every night. crying in front of Allah for their desired wishes to come true. they missed the most important part of it. TO WORK FOR IT. remember, Allah will not change the fate of a person unless he is willing to change it himself. for things to change, we must change first.

and as usual, the story ends with cursing Allah, blaming others, losing faith in Islam, giving up all our desired dreams. those awful endings are all due to our failures in doing things right. by meaning we did not follow the right procedure of doa. we didnt do it right. we, Malays always jealous of others success stories and somehow really LOVE to be at the bottom. it inherited from generation to generation because we never change. we relied the whole thing to Allah. "oh dont worry.if something bad happen just doa.soon every thing will be alright". and then we continue to sleep for a long time only to wake up when 'soon' had already passed by and our prayers were never come true.

i am so upset of this kind of attitude in our people. PEMALAS DAN TAK BETANGGUNGJAWAB!SUKA MENYALAHKAN KEADAAN SEKELILING!! please change dear friends. jangan belajar seinggi gunung tapi tak tahu isinya.

betulkan kebiasaan,biasakan yang betul!

FINALLY!!dreaming again

2011-07-08T03:15:00.000+08:00

finally,i dreamt again. :) its been weeks since i last had a dream.i used to have at least a dream for every each of my sleep.even for a short nap.and all the dreams i had were so dreamy.i mean,out of this world.crazy!imagine talking dinosaurs or mingling with power rangers and having drinks with them like old friends do.yeah,those kinds of dreams.a lot of my friends were tired listening to me telling them about my weird dreams.but they were so excitingly crazy.

this shows how bored am i at home.nothing interesting happened.creativity restricted.mind narrowed.so no interesting experiences recalled through my dreams.until,i went back to ktt yesterday.aish,rindu pulak :)

balance! or you'll fall..

2011-06-27T18:16:00.001+08:00

at the moment you start reading this. please take a deep breathe and think. is the world in balance? does every thing is in their places? does every person do what they supposed to do?

okay, now think what we have learned in school.

Lenz's law said that the induced object will act to produce an effect to oppose the change producing it.

in biology, negative feedback mechanism act to minimise the changes in in our body to survive. it balances the internal environment of our body.

in ecological studies, theres a cycle that acts between preys and predators to help maintaining the ecosystem and preserving the existence of the species. the predators aid in minimising the population of the preys so that they do not breed too fast or to a very large number. as the number of preys decreases, the number of predators also decreases. and the rest, you can imagine yourself.

in Islam, there is zakat which helps to balance the economy. so that no one is too rich nor too poor.

in chemistry, we learned about equilibrium which strongly applies on solution. and which always gives me a headache.

know anything about yin yang? well i dont. but i think there is something relating to balance between good or bad. it applies in almost anything. actions,arguments,judgings etc etc etc.

prophet Muhammad pbuh also taught us to be modest in ibadah. read THIS. or this. or even this one.

now, think. do you ever realise something from all those knowledge? do we ever apply them? those written above have something in common. BALANCE. or being in between of the most and the least.most of great things happened in the world are due to balance. most of great things happened lies between the most of it and the least of it. all due to balance. so dont be biase to be safe. be neutral.

balance yourself so that you wont fall

"...Sungguh, pada demikian itu terdapat tanda-tanda (kebesaran Allah) bagi orang-orang yang berfikir. "
( potongan dari ayat 3 Surah Ar- Ra'd )

perceptions??all it takes is one

2011-06-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

earlier this evening,while i was waiting for babah to pick me up at the LRT station i heard that a female african american said "why malaysians are so fucking racist?!". im not sure what happened, but the lady sure was pissed off. maybe there was something that the malay cab driver said. something that was so offensive. and also something that he did. he was somehow refuse to take her as his passenger.

what im trying to say here is; among millions of noble,humble,polite and tolerance malay,it takes only one stupid fucking racist to implant a negative perception in the mind of that african american female. and this theory applies to any other situations. i'll list them for you guys to think of it.

it takes only one muslim millionaire to crash a plane into others building for the whole other true muslims worldwide to be assumed as terrorists

it takes only one ass-kissing, dishonest, stupid politician to do something personally stupid for the whole nation to stop believing in his party.

it takes only one female who wears hijab to do something awful for the whole community to say "perempuan bertudung selalu macam tu.harap pakai tudung je lebih".

it takes only one stupid jerk to left his girlfriend after a one night stand for the girl to stop believing in guys and become a lesbian.

it takes only a single blonde to be bitchy for the world to announce that blonde girls are stupid.

it takes only a single gay named elton john to marry a guy for the whole gay community worldwide to start open gay relationships and start marrying each other.

all of those craps and a whole lot of other awful stuffs can be caused by just a single stupid action done by a stupid person. one action by one person to cause a global event. to implant negative perceptions into the mind of others globally. but not this theory can also helps to make the world better.

it takes only one handsome malaysian to fly to the space for the whole youths of malaysia to become inspired again.

it takes only one humble indian leader to start a peaceful riot for india to achieve its independence

it takes only a single arab to sing RnB songs regarding Islam in english for malaysians to start listening to nasyids again.

so remember, every time you wanna do something, think again. your single action may cause a worldwide phenomenon. you represent what people see in you. dont let people judge you by the way you looked. show them what good can you do. show them your positive side. prove them wrong! cause all it takes is just a single silly mistake for people to start judging you. thank you for reading this.

purpose (tribute to a friend)

2011-06-22T02:21:00.004+08:00

few days ago, a good friend of mine asked me why do i wanted to become a doctor?and i was speechless.my mind was empty.no complete sentence did come out.and i was panic.why did that happen?do i really want to become a doctor?why did i even accept the offer to continue for medicine?have i lost my path?or did i even had a path?a clear path..

but deep inside i know that i have to become a doctor.theres a feeling telling me that i have to take medicine.an instinct that leads me here.i know that it would be fine for me.and the people around me.not that i dont know why i wanted to take medicine.but i just forgot.well,i hope so..

i would like to thank that friend of mine.thank you very very very much for asking me that thrilling question.it made me realised something important.something which i had lost.a purpose...THANKS FRIEND :)

you never know :(

2011-06-19T03:21:00.002+08:00

down...way down

2011-06-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

i found my new fear. a fear that can crush me down. way down. the fear to dissapoint others. at this point the target is my parents.

and at this point, i would lift myself up. i dont share my tears. i dont know how to tell you my stories. it would end up topsy turvy.

at point like this, i would remind myself the brilliant words i gained. words of wisdom from movies. advices from my dad.

"kita mesti terus hidup bro"

- Osman Tikus (balada seniman jalanan)-

memori ekspedisi (tribute to KTTians)

2011-06-15T17:52:00.000+08:00

this is the song that i supposed to sing during the grand dinner. but because of lack of confidence and also my short term memory which leads to a major problem, which is that i forgot the melody.hahaha. so maybe you can sing it with your own melody. use your creativity. if you can play instruments, the chords are G C and D. play G with two bars, and single bar for C and D.

duhai kawanku

senyum lah selalu

walau apa-apa pun

yang datang meluru

jangan biarkan

hatimu merana

semua yang datang itu

ada hikmahnya

setapak demi setapak

biar perlahan asalkan sampai

destinasi bukan matlamat

tapi pengalaman yang kita dapat

perjalanan beribu batu

takkan mula tanpa langkah maju

biar buku setinggi gunung

kalau tak baca pun takkan untung

teruskan terus berjalan

bergerak maju ke hadapan

terbanglah kawanku terbang

jangan pula kau menyimpang

jangan gentar meredah

hujan di dunia

pelangi kejayaan

menunggu kau di sana

chorus:

janganlah engkau resah

kita berpecah seketika

walau jasad terpisah

di hati kita tetap bersama

janganlah engkau sedih

yang penting bukan destinasi

tetap terpahat di hati

memori indah ekspedisi

outcomes??

2011-06-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

okay,just watched another girlie movie. but dont worry. im not turning faggot. so this movie called "dia hanya bukan itu ke dalam awak". well, one thing that this movie taught me is that we should not listen to others when it comes to things that matter our feelings. like for instance; love,favourite music,with whom you love to hang out. most of us, including i myself are limiting our life with rules that dont really exist.

since we were little, we were told that if someone does this to you, then it might be this or that. if you dress like this people will call you a nerd. or anything like that. and we kept on holding to them to ourselves and grew with them. and we became cowards. afraid to do this. afraid of what people might say. afraid of the possible outcomes.

people made rules and said what they had been through. but do they take the path that you are taking? no! they dont. they think they had been there. but the truth is, everyone have their own path of life. there may lies some similarities. but also a lot of differences.

im not saying that we should not listen to opinions of the others. but we who decide what we want. so, the wise way that i suggest here is to take opinions and do what you think best for you, which is reasonable to your conditions.

dont afraid to explore.

theres a millions of possible outcomes, but theres only one for sure.

beautiful words

2011-06-14T17:24:00.000+08:00

i was touched by the poem in this video. aided by the beatiful scenery and peaceful pictures of what would symbolise our country Malysia, it touches even deeper. this poem is a bit rebellious though. what i like about it is that the writer used simple words. not some fancy high-level vocabularies. it shows how humble and true those words are. well,you should watch it yourself. ENJOY!

chow kit kita

2011-06-13T20:07:00.001+08:00

i mentioned earlier in my last post about visiting Pesta Chow Kit Kita right? so now im gonna share some of the pictures i had taken there. you have definitely been wondering just what the hell is this chow kit kita right? ok,briefly its a program for the community of chow kit,especially the youth.the program basically helps to promote chow kit. everybody thinks that chow kit is a dangerous place. drug addicts,homeless people,prostitutes,pondan and all other negative stuffs. so it helps to rub off those negative perceptions about chow kit. it also provides fun and useful activities for the kids of chow kit. other than that it also promotes places to eat in that area.

lots of activities were held along the program. lots of classes taught by experienced facilitators.most of them are related to arts like graffiti,theatre,dance,photography,computer designing and so much other stuffs to light up their spirit.

on the day of the festival,lots of other activities were held and their work during the whole program were displayed on that day. unfortunately i came late. so not much that i experienced. there were lots of free foods were given. foods in Malaysian culture like rojak,roti canai,nasi lemak,satay etc etc etc.
there were also music performances,theatre by the kids,flash mob and also a place where you can draw whatever you want on a board.i drew some.and im quite impressed with my own drawings haha

for more info of the program,you can always visit http://www.facebook.com/ChowKitKita?sk=info
for the flash mob,you can view it here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKKeDRhetTU&playnext=1&list=PL0D2DCADFD1DE7BDA . they design the dance themselves.

you can always take a look at some pictures i managed to take. not much cause i didnt realise that my phone can take picture until the last minute there hahaha cembodo! just go and see them in my facebook.

all alone

2011-06-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

just one more post for tonight and im done for today.

just this evening,after lunch, i went to the Pest Chow Kit Kita 2. i went there alone since none of my friend is available for me to go with. it was a great festival. fun and simple. strangers get along well together. but thats not the point of my post here.

so i went there alone. and went back home,alone. i was home alone. and until now,im all alone.

at some point when i was waiting for my train ride home, i remembered what my father once told me.
"kawan bukan selalu ada bila-bila masa.jangan fikir orang lain sangat.diri sendiri kena fikir dulu"
well,something like that lah.

im not stressing that my friends are terrible. no. they are awesome people.seriously!! but the point is, we have to be independent. like my situation here, im all alone because all of my friends already starting their classes while im sitting here in front of the laptop.all alone.at this point, i felt totally pathetic and somewhat a loser.

i never felt like this before. back when i was in school, its always us. me and my friends. even during school holidays. but now, im all alone. we have different schedules.different things to do.

owh GOD!! i miss my friends!! school friends!! college friends!!

pray for me..please.i really need your help.thanks.

2011-06-13T00:28:00.002+08:00

have...you met "crap"?

2011-06-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

just watched she's out of my league. and i went like "awww..sweetnye". damn!! i really need to find a girlfriend. the first reason is; i noticed that im becoming more and more jambu inside. the second reason is, when i watch the movie, i think...hurm..how should i say this.i think im longing for love.ok dont read this!!haha cembodo

the grand,the topman and the goodbye

2011-06-13T00:15:00.000+08:00

okay,maybe a little bit late but im about to post a review on the Grand Graduation Dinner of KTT's Class 2011.the last memories and moments for me with KTTians, for now that is.

the venue

PAN PAC BHAI!! grand isnt it?? yup! rm100 didnt go any waste

look at the size of that ballroom. the tables. the settings were just perfectly grand.

(below) see.they even booked a room for us students. a room for us to take showers and get ready for the fancy night.

the rehearsal

(left) the briefing by Mr Razib. budak MARA kena marah sebab lambat datang briefing.

(left) the performance rehearsal. (above) the stressed face.

(below) the emcees.preparing what to say.frankly,those other two emcees; dalvin and alex were very well prepared and very well together.i was the odd one.didnt jot down any notes at all.

the food

(right) the menu.chinese food. they served dish by dish. there were 7 of them. imagine being the busy with the emcee thingy, and could just watch all the dishes being served one by one with the thought "i wish my friends would save some for me". lucky for me,i have great friends.thanks yall.
(below) the apetizer. delicious mouth watering salad.

(right) the dessert. mix of fresh juicy fruits.

the beautiful and happy people

the topman models

the sponsors

THE GOODBYE

DECIDED!!

2011-06-04T01:01:00.000+08:00

ok.great news!!i know now what song to sing on the grand dinner night.presenting...(drum roll) TADAA!!

yeah.this song.i'll try to make it as an acoustic performance.means i'll play the guitar while singing the song.then,one of my dreams will come true.hope it will be well and sound well.i couldnt find the chord for the song masih,also by flop poppy.i found only one.but it seemed hard.and i couldnt imagine me singing that song while playing those chords.

so guys,WISH ME LUCK!!

bad english bad habit?

2011-06-03T04:06:00.000+08:00

my situation

it is proven that blogging helps to improve your english and also give you confidence to speak or use english in writings or to communicate.i havent had the chance to write any post for my blog for quite a long time.more than a month i guess.and it has given me some difficulties to write again in english.i noticed that i felt different when i start to write again.i felt like lost for words to write.not as i used to.

the hypothesis

two birds were shot with a single bullet i guess.because it is also proven that a habit or a routine can be changed.it is possible.when you stop doing something you're so used to,it will eventually being removed from your basis of everyday life.you will stop doing it.or maybe you will feel a little awkward doing it.you will feel like it is new to you.but the fact is,it is not.in fact,it is something you always did in your past.but you cant remember how you did it.how well it is fitted to your daily activities.

how can i remove my habits?

but how can a habit that fits so well in you,can be changed or removed?well,in my situation.there was a big barrier called study or fear of examinations.so,this big barrier is stopping me,harassing me from doing something that i always do.it blocked my view from the temptation of doing something i like.it kept me busy all the time.

but what about your facebook activities?i didnt see any reduction in your usage of that site.well,yeah.you may say that.so here is my explanation about the concept.to removed a habit,a strong will must be gained as well.you must have the will to resist it.in my situation again,i can bear not to be busy with my blog post.but i cant resist to frequently checked on my facebook account.that was because i never did intend to resist it.i never had the will to do so.or maybe,my will is not strong enough.i have lost the battle against the sweet seduction of facebook.that means the stronger the habit you wanted to stop,the stronger the will you need to stop it.that is,if you wanted to stop it.so in my case against facebook,i did not stop using it because i did not have the idea of stop using it.

the most important thing in deleting a habit from your daily life is to practice.practice to not doing it.it may be hard at first.but you will not regret it,if that is what you wanted at the first place;which is removing it.

why do i need to remove my habits?and how to know it is a bad habit?

it is always important for people to be comfortable with you.it makes you feel more confident and more energetic.to be respected or for others to feel comfortable with you,you have to listen.listen what others have to say about yourself.be more observant.some people would not dare to tell you your faults.so they remain silent.and its your job to improvise yourself and correct yourself.if people are not comfortable with your habits,stop doing them.dont ever be so ego to say that they are wrong and give such unacceptable and immature excuses.evaluate what people say.don always think bad of what they are saying.they just wanted to help you being more acceptable to the community.

p/s: help me with my writing.im not used to it now. :)

super crap

2011-06-02T17:01:00.000+08:00

A level is now finished.alhamdulillah.for both accomplished A level and also the placement i was given.God hears my prayer to help me in a situation where i must make a choice.by giving me RCMP and not letting me pass the entrance exam for Charles University made the whole thing a lot easier for me.no dilemma.no feeling of guilt.all will be well.

now,its the time for me to enjoy minggu kosong.sleep all day and stay up all night in front of my laptop until im all down syndrom.muka kacang.

still thinking of what song should i sing during the grand dinner.never thought i was going to sing live in front of my friends though.i wonder what did the lecturers had in mind when they chose me to perform.they never heard me singing.plus,i dont have a voice of an angel like pian nor safwan.damn!
but i tried to think positive and will avoid being nervous on the stage.well,i always wanted to do an acoustic performance.so maybe this is my chance.the only chance i guess.

one more great thing,i just bought an Ozzy Osbourne shades!!yeah!ok some called it harry potter shades and some called it John Lennon shades.you know,the kind that looks very round and small.well,im just going to call it Ozzy Osbourne shades.it is way COOLER!man,im going to look good on the Grand Dinner.white jeans jacket with ozzy osbourne shades.damn...people look out,theres a good looking MC on his way yeah!

i keep em in my safe

2011-05-24T04:35:00.000+08:00

things i would keep till im old.of course other than my family and religion :

1. friends
2. playing bass
3. memories
4. books i bought

dear MAK

2011-05-08T01:39:00.000+08:00

dear mak,

you may not read this

because you dont have any facebook nor blogger account

but never mind,i'll write properly for you though

and hoping and praying maybe some day this heart will burst bravely

to read it out loud in front of you

to say how much i love you

dear mak,

i still remember

how you teach me how to read

how you teach how to count

and how you teach me how to eat

how to draw triangles,square and round

you have your own vision

you guide me with your own way

not a single aunt of mine i saw do like you did

you taught me well

you taught me tough

i may cried a lot

missed my playtime with cousins

but the tears had dried

and i glad it was out then

dear mak

remember when i had nightmares?

i saw car accidents or monsters in my dreams

you woke up in the middle of the night

sang a lullaby until i was in deep sleep

then you continue your chores

in the middle of the night?

washing cloathes,alone

how i wish i can turn back time

and be with you through those cold nights

dear mak,

you sacrificed a lot

but this child still do what he was not supposed to do

this child is not good enough for you

a lot of good child needs your comfort,your motherness

but this child that got what you gave

by that, i really think that im lucky

lucky to have someone i dont deserve

please god let me keep this mom

let me pay my debt to her

or till death i would be in regret

dear mak,

if im reading this to you

right now

then god has answered my pray

to be brave enough to say this in front of you

not anymore an unworthy coward little boy

HAPPY MAK'S DAY!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

the tale of onelove.chapter 1:the bright smile and the dark grin

2011-05-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time,there was a place named "ONELOVE".there lived all kinds of good people.they live like one huge happy family.every one knows each other.peace had live among them for a very long time.since the first man had stepped his foot on the beautiful land,peace had followed to stay there with him.

the place was full of happiness.green trees were everywhere.flowers bloom all the time.the fresh gently blown.smiles were drawn on faces from the moment the sun rises till it drowns.and the sun was always smiling with them.in the morning,children starts their day with educational yet fun inputs from school.in the evening,they can be seen runng and laughing.playing with their friends.adults would be found working by the day.farming,fishing,sewing,talking, and all sorts of jobs.they enjoyed what they do for a living.everything was average.they like to live like that.average in every scope of living.jim carrey could only left them with a chuckle and a wide smile.they avoid laughing to hard.there is a very big risk for having something too much.at least that is what they believe.

but within those happy and joyful moments,there hidden an evil power.so evil even Bush were like a joke to that power.the power lies in the hand of a man.a man that lives way far deep in the dark side of the town.the side where grass were always black.mists floating.the only flowers that grow there were thorns.trees grow without leaves.the side where only poisonous animals lived.and the man was named as Orange.they called him the Annoying One.

some say he used to be a very nice gentleman.he never laughed though.he only smile when jokes were heard,or when he was happy.but one day,a man tripped in front of him after stepping on a banana peel and fell on a dog poo.right on his face.he could not stand watching it,Orange laughed so hard.he laughed too hard that he could not breathe.he laughed all the way back home.laughed and laughed,he could not sleep that night.

he tried to stop laughing,but he just couldn't.since that moment he became a jerk.a jerk that always teasing everyone.he thought that everyone loved what he did.he never takes something serious.always joking around and laughed.laughed all day and all night.they said that he had become a madman.since,people started to call him the Annoying One.the one that annoys you with his lame jokes.never tired of laughing.never tired of teasing.he was isolated.the people of Onelove chased him out of the town for causing so much trouble.and so he lived on the dark side,alone.waiting for the right time to avenge those townies with his ultimate prank.

ceri beri bookworm

2011-05-01T01:36:00.000+08:00

ok dont have much to say.but a bit dissapointed about my last post.i thought many would participate helping me writing the story.oh well...i cant force someone to do the thing i wanted them to do,which they dont wanna do.

today,i had an awful journey.but yet it comes with a very delightful end.

went to the KL International Book Fest 2011.the journey was a bit sad.i was having stomachache.and i thought i was about to explode back in the train.i said to myself "c'mon..you can do this.we will make it through this.".as the lady in the speaker announced "PUTRA!PUTRA!" and as soon as the door opened,i rushed out of the train.and only to find that a gazillion people was at the what do you call that?hurm..the thing that we walk pass through after we insert our ticket.yeah,that thing lah.and so i was panic.

and to make things worse,the station did not have any toilet.so i walk in a very long and slow line of people on the small pavement beside a road.

i saw the big-tall-maroon-that-used-to-be-a-very-famous-mall-to-hangout building.THE MALL.so i skipped the line of slow people and cross the road.then suddenly..jeng jeng jeng!!*"ani,angkat kain hujan,jemuran dah turun!".it was suddenly raining.just the moment i stepped out from the roofed pavement.and so i was exposed to the rain.but,in my mind,i said that my bowel is more important than my shirt.so i crossed the road and enter the building.

the toilet was on the second floor.i took the elevator.i almost fell.but i strengthen my legs.and run up to the second floor.sure it was very very embarrassing.but my bowel is more important than my not-affected-by-the-trip-machoness.

so there she was,sitting behind the table while counting the small changes she received from every person entering that heaven.look at that proud straight face.uurgh!50 cents??just for using the toilet?damn,the world is cruel!without hesitating i put exactly 50 cents on the table without even look at her face and walked fast into that so called heaven.with a grand event held nearby,anyone would think what i thought.there must be a very long line in that toilet.but to my surprise,there were just three persons.and so,it was pleasure!!ok enough with the ceri beri part.

so,i only decided to buy what i bought today when i was half my way lurking to get out of the first hall,the Karangkraf hall.TEOHLOGY by patrick teoh and UNIVERSITI KEDUA by kassim ahmad.and i got them both.well,im pretty excited because im not used to reading.but these books are something else.they were actually the fifth and sixth books that i have ever volunteering to buy in my whole-almost-20 years of life.what i dont get about most of the people there was,why the heck that they went to such event just to buy ujang and lawak kampus??camon la brother.beli kat mamak pon boleh kot.

but actually the event was not that great at all.it was just a convention.duh..the only different between the event and ordinary bookstores were the prices they offered and the variety of books you can choose.imagine over 40 bookstores combined.yeah lots and lots of books.

WHAT'S NEXT??(be creative to continue this story.spread the love!)

2011-04-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

ok boys and girls!lets play a game shall we?a game of "WHAT'S NEXT?".
i'm going to give a head start.and all you boys and girls need to do is continue the story by adding what your ever so creative minds thought it would be next.you can alter the storyline as creative as you can.even add some characters.the story will end when i decide it to end and it will end with "and they live happily ever after.THE END".got it?
i'll edit the whole story to make it more appropriate to be read,and post it here on this page,so you guys can enjoy the whole wonderful story that you guys wrote.

here are some rules that you need to follow:

the theme of the story is about love (kasih sayang).not the kind like couple love.LOVE.
the characters' names must be names of local fruits.
do not astray from the story too much.
imagine that you are writing a story book for kids.
dont post comments continuously.give chance for the story to grow with other's ideas as well.
no vulgar words or violent or dirty scenes.
spread this great news.the more the merrier.
dont post your comments as "ANONYMOUS".kindly write your name.just for crediting purpose.
dont write too long.maximum of three sentences for each post.

so the story starts like this:

"Once upon a time,there was a place named "ONELOVE".there lived all kinds of good people.they live like one huge happy family.every one knows each other.peace had live among them for a very long time.since the first man had stepped his foot on the beautiful land,peace had followed to stay there with him." (please continue)

GOOD LUCK!!and remember,HAVE FUN WRITING and BE CREATIVE!!

fact vs myth

2011-04-15T03:03:00.002+08:00

"The word fact can refer to verified information about past or present circumstances or events which are presented as objective reality. In science, it means a provable concept."

(wikipedia)

"A myth is a story that may or may not be true. Myths are generally very old. This means there are no records or other proof that they happened. We know about them from older people telling them to younger people. Some myths may have started as 'true' stories but as people told and re-told them, they may have changed some parts, so they are less 'true'. They may have changed them by mistake, or to make them more interesting."

(wikipedia)

both myth and fact are very confusing.all our life we had heard some myths and some facts.but how far can a fact that we trust is really a fact?how far did we know that it is proven to be true?and the similar question should be asked for myth.how far is a myth is really a myth?how far did we know that it was just a story?everyday we are fed with stories,mostly came from the mouths of others.did we checked it?did we analysed them?have we done some researches about it to confirm the story?we just digested them right away,right?

well,a fact can be created.even if it is not true.it just need to be close to logical and a little bit of confidence in passing it on to others.plus,for a better result,the 'fact' should be a very pleasing one.i've done few experiments.it is actually very close to lying.but the difference is that people would not know that it was a lie.as i said before,it needs a little bit of confidence.in one of my experiment,i've told my fellow classmates that our class was cancelled.and guess what?they all believed it.they believed it because the story was been told with full confidence and very close to logical.and also,they were very pleased to hear that kind of news.

it could be a historical moment,(not that historical,but still),and also could be a fact if i hold on to it for a longer time.but i would not want to do that.because i could get in so much trouble for lying.but the point is,a fact can be created without even a single proof.

well,before a proggramme named MYTHBUSTER was broadcasted (owh,i love that show), almost all of the myth was thought to be a fact to common people.(see,you got me now?)we all thought that we can really burn a piece of paper instantly using a magnifying glass.but actually it cannot be done,unless you focus it for a very long time under a very hot climate in an open area.it was actually a lie all along.and how long does that lie survive?quite a long period actually.that kind a fact was never a fact actually.it is a myth!

imagine a leader of a country giving a speech in front of his people.during the Q&A session,a reporter suddenly asked a question which is very difficult for him to answer.should he pretend to know what he was going to say and cover himself up with a lie?or should he said,"that's a tough question.i dont know the answer.duhhh!!"? with confident he would answer the question that he himself did not know the answer.he answers it with a lie.and guess what?the reporter jot the words down,and by the evening the story was ready on the editor's desk.the next morning,it was published.everybody reads it,and everybody believes it.and it becomes a fact from that moment on.

nowadays,so many newspapers published so many stories.and people kept on discussing about these stories.the stories grow and grow after a mouth to another mouth.and facts are mixing up with myths.finally it confuses us.so,the moral here is,dont believe right away what you listen and read.do some research.it may be a myth,it may be a fact.the results can be surprising.maybe my post here could also be a myth,or maybe a plain true fact. :)

cinta

2011-04-13T14:34:00.000+08:00

kinda miss this song.time sekolah selalu dengar.and it has been stuck in my head since yesterday.

mistranslation

2011-04-12T00:47:00.001+08:00

okay people..there is a minor misunderstanding to my last post.maybe because of the title "dull me".but actually,the main point of the post was to say how am i annoyed by the same texts about CLASSES i received every day.its not that im pathetic enough to say how lonely i was (even though it is true).

anyways,thanks to all my dear friends that texted me today.you all really had me laughing.hahaha :)

dull me

2011-04-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

why?why me?why am i so dull?my handphone vibrates often.getting me excited and all.but most of the time the excitement stops as i read the text and ended with a sigh."kelas ada tak besok?","ada kelas cancel tak?","kelas kat mana?" and those kinds of texts.i received them every single day.at least five similar texts from different persons.why cant i receive text from a girl saying "hye,buat apa?", or "adib,jom makan" or "adib! :)".just a 'hye' text message from a girl would be fine.(well of course with replies after that one)*SIGH

happy anniversary

2011-04-10T03:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday's the date where mak and babah should be celebrating their 25th anniversary.instead we celebrated it together as a family.except for my younger sister.she's at school.HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!

i dedicate this song to you guys :)

f**king media

2011-04-10T03:15:00.003+08:00

when you flip over a newspaper,especially malay newspaper,page by page,what do you see?when you turn on your favourite national TV channel,what do you see?okay,stop pretending and defending your lame favourite newspaper.you have to admit that most of the news and topics centered by those jerks are gossips,political gossips,tahyuls and some disgusting stories about rape cases.am i right??

okay,here's the thing that pissed me off.those bastards are not doing what they are supposed to do.the media is the future of a nation.the mind-shaper of its people.the medium which almost whole of the nation spending most of their time with.they have the advantages,the power,the will,thus the responsibilities towards the mind of the people whom consuming the inputs that they had provide.instead,they keep on selling those lame awful 'HOT' stories to keep their tummies full.fuck with the international magazines and tv proggrammes.those are the problems that the outsiders gave us.we ourselves should not do the same just to add the burden to our own shoulders.we overcome them.that is what we should do.

our people are fed with those bullshits every each day from the newspapers and tv programmes.sadly,those are the products of our own local media companies.they knew our weakness.our people especially malays are very easily to fall for anything related to tahyuls and gossips.but again,they keep on feeding us with those hot topics so that they got the highest rating of publication.what??nothing else can catch attentions?more publication means more money!look at reader's digest.the weekly published mini-sized magazine is full of informations.health,motivations,inspirations,comedies,art,science,technologies,social,communications.all those sorts of positive inputs are gathered there.in the book.no gossip or ghost stories at all.but yet,they fly high baby.they got readers all over the WORLD!!then it is proven that you dont need hot stories to be big.to suck moneys.

adding to the problem we got,our people always blame the JEWS,and the WEST for every awful thing that happened to them.said that the jews are trying to poison their narrow minds and everything.but perhaps they should see what their own brothers are doing to them.giving bullshits every day.making them slower and falling behind in every each scope.none are developing.except racism and sifat assabiyah through the politic gossips that they wrote.

okay,maybe i should stop now.this feeling of angry is only gonna grows after each word that i typed.wake up and think again.here's a great song i liked you guys to hear.hear what he gotta say

impostor

2011-04-06T14:13:00.001+08:00

1,2,3 and 4
why dont you walk out the door
cuz i know what your lookin for
i cant stand it anymore
5,6,7 and 8
cant you live your shit pretty straight?
lookin for somethin to immitate
i'll crack your head just like an egg

A,B,C and D
get out of my way you lil G
dont wait until i make you pee
cuz im about to blow just like a tsunami
cmon boy dont be so lame
copy other peoples' style and name
cant you think of any for your own?
what??there aint nothin in that hole?

please,please,sit down boy
quit your act go play with your toy
im gonna say this just once more
cuz i cant stand it anymore

IMPOSTOR!!!
IMPOSTOR!!!
IMPOSTOR!!!
IMPOSTOR!!!

adibyaw

forgetful

2011-04-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

got a lot of things went through my mind two days ago.great ideas and topics to post.but they all had banished due to my short term memory.susah betul jadi pelupa ni..aish.. :(

this is awesome!!click it!!and this is not a spam

2011-03-24T16:07:00.000+08:00

www.this-is-my-story.com/v/03M69F8IYR9X

peeps,i got something great to share with you all.see that link up there?click it and prepare yourself for something that will shock you like hell that you would need a doctor stand by you to make sure youre still breathing.click it!now!you wont regret it.its not some old lame jokes about monster popping out your monitor.its really inspiring though.just click that damn link and you'll be happy that you made that decision cause it might make your day.please read what it wrote at the end of the session.its a credit for the website.visit it!thanks :)

its time

2011-03-20T12:57:00.000+08:00

it has to start somewhere

it has to start some time

what better place than here

what better time than now

(Wake Up by Rage Against the Machine)

the quote up there had been playing in my mind for quite a while now.and it still is.but i dont mind.because they are great words arranged in the most fucking right places with the most heart pumping,head banging,awesome melody by the greatest revolutionary band ever!!!the lyrics written by zach de la rocha (the vocalist) are mostly fully honest,awakening minds,and full of controversies due to his very obviously extreme words being outspoken through his songs.and i dont blame him.the world is full of shits.but we cant see them.because they were hidden.

personality??choice or destiny?

2011-03-17T03:09:00.000+08:00

someone i knew said that personality cant be changed.i deeply doubt that.personality is a choice,not a destiny for a person.a path,not a destination.it can be changed,and not permanent.we were borned with zero identities.pure.we're the ones that fill it as we live and grow.what makes it different is whether it is hard or easy to shape it.to mold it into a perfect figure.the figure that we desire.

"i was borned like this.take it or leave it."

yeah,you were borned as you were then.but you live on your own now.nobody's controlling you.you are the master of your soul.there's no gene in your DNA that controls your personality.it only controls how you would look like.your physical characteristics.you cant point out on God for letting you borned in a bad situation.He knows everything.He have got plans for every one of His creation.He will not burden anyone if one cant bear it.

"my surroundings made me like this."

you live with choices around you,all the time.bad choices and good choices as well.you have to make decision on what path you will take.what actions you would make.to shape yourself and build a good strong personality.its not a wise idea to say that surroundings made you who you are today.its you yourself that made you today.your surroundings are just like a box of apples.you yourself decide whether to take bad,rotten apples or nice,shiny and crispy apples to eat.

"i've been living among these kinds of people my whole life.how possibly can i change?"

anything is possible,if the steps you take are correct and if you put enough effort.rome wasnt built in a night.it took a very very long time and a lot of effort too.it all depends on you.if you are willing to change for good,then good things you will have.like i said before.personality is a choice and can be changed.only the matter of difficulty to change and to make a choice.but with a strong will,anything is possible.as an example,if you're living among gangsters,the hesitate and possibility for you to join gangs are high.which means it is hard for you to shape a personality as a saint.plus,with your friend whom are also joining the gangs persuate you to join them.to be a gangster.that would leave you with a worse situation.a dilemma.but they cant control what you would choose.if youre not strong enough and seduced by their persuations,you would build your personality as a gangster.but if you choose to be a saint with a strong will.then,maybe you would leave town and live as a saint.get it?you decide on who you are or who you would be.

"deep down i always wanted to be a good person.but at the same time,i wanted to join my friends.and my friends are cool and not so good."

dont bother mixing personality and activities.personality is something that you hold as a principle which shape who you are.activity is something that you do physically.you can always join your friends with their activities.a perfect pudding needs perfect quantity of water.lack of water makes it hard.too much water makes it too soft and wet.perfect amount of water makes it just fine and delicious to eat.so be a perfect pudding!balance your activities.every thing comes with a risk.even honey which is said to contain lots of good nutrients comes with a risk of diabetes if you take it too much.

"who are you to talk about my personality?are you so damn perfect??"

no.im not.in fact im not even near having a perfect personality.personality is a complicated thing to be talked about.and it is very subjective.so theres no right and wrong.but people can talk.and sometimes their speech would get you hurt.so be careful.dont make people talk bad about your personality.because in the end youre the one that get hurt.im just saying all those craps as a guide.to help friends.its your choice to absorb or to thrash it out.this is just a lame idea that i think many of us is confused about.

the bond of siblings

2011-03-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

Exhausted after standing still for about 15 minutes in the KTM,he finally got his eyes on an empty seat nearby. He felt a bit regret giving his seat to an old woman,yet he could not stand seeing the old lady standing while his young limbs relaxing on the cushiony seat. He used to be strong enough to stand for almost an hour in the packed train. But his cold doesn’t allow him to be as strong as he used to be.

A heavy breath followed as he layed down his bottom on the seat.in front of him, were three little girls.theyre siblings.from their face,obviously they have Borneo or Chinese blood flowing in them.they sat accordingly to their ages.the eldest at the left,the middle and the youngest at the right.the eldest and the middle were busy doing their revisions.maybe examination was around the corner.the eldest kept on asking questions to the middle.they were having some sort of a quiz between them.he heard some of the questions.one of them was something about phototropism and hydrotropism.he remembered way back during his school days.science was always his favourite subject.the youngest just sit thight with a very clueless innocent cute face.she was about 5 to 7 years old.she was observing all sorts of people in the train.just like what he was doing.

Suddenly,the eldest accidentally hit a cup of McFlurry Oreo her younger sister was holding.luckily it was empty.only some drops of the ice cream’s leftover fell over on the middle’s pants.they both were shocked.guilt was all over the eldest’s face.

He acted like he saw nothing.lead his head to somewhere else so that the girls wont know that he was watching.it would be awful and humiliated if they knew he was watching those embarrassing moments.humiliated for him,and for the girls.

Out of the blue,the youngest whom noticed the incident,asked the middle with a smile on her face; “pakai yang ni boleh ke?”.she offered her sister her sweater that she was holding,for her sister to wipe the mess on her laps.”takpe ke?” asked the middle to her beloved younger sister.”takpe.”, she replied.

He smiled seeing those sweet moments.how sweet the way they interact between themselves touches his heart.helping each other out.even if it meant for them to sacrifice.the three sisters noticed that they were being watched and giggled among themselves.he was very embarrassed and act all sleepy and closed his eyes.

get up (and dance with me)

2011-02-20T12:52:00.002+08:00

a good doctor

2011-02-20T12:43:00.000+08:00

yup!!i was right!!

nancy did pregnant.guess i can be a good doctor after all.and guess what?she had given birth to 4 of her babies.one died,but three survived.its sad that i was not around to see the babies.just in few hours i'll be seeing them soon.

ive prepared names for the three of them.inspired by a great american punk rock band's line up,THE RAMONES.im gonna name them JOEY,JOE and DEE DEE.nice uh??or should they be named as RONNIE,JAMES and DIO??

not craps

2011-02-20T04:09:00.001+08:00

im not quite sure what to post actually.but i got the feeling that i need to post something.its been a quite a while i think since my last post.so i think im about to write craps now.

firstly,my blog layout sucks.and i really think it should be changed.except for the bob marley and the fishes.maybe later.or maybe right after this.

then,i noticed that Nancy is getting bigger and rounder.shes having babies in there i think.this time,its more than one.pretty fast i think for her to be pregnant again.since her dead son just died few weeks ago.

my handphone had not ring or vibrate alerting any exciting texts or calls for some time now.its kind of boring and sad.oh,how pathetic.

but one thing that excites me since last week.our new song that is.for the first time,we successfully wrote a full song with the lyrics.and we had played them as well.its a blues.or maybe a rock n roll song.theres some Chuck Berry a bit.and a little The Wonders here and there.and we called it "Get up (and dance with me)".so KTTians,watch out!!you all gonna listen to it first during the Battle of the Bands on 26th.

and thats it.theyre not craps at all after all.

paintings,drawings,cartoons and doodles (tribute to all cartoon lovers)

2011-02-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

paintings,drawings,cartoons and doodles

so crazy like instant noodles

never the logical

yet only fictional

creativity bursting

my lungs expanding

i was lucky borned in the 90s

so much that were inspiring

i took my poor blunt stationaries

made all my heroes into drawings

if i knew i'd miss them this much

i would keep them well

file them if thats not too much

yet,i will draw again,hope it would be well

adibarifin

doodles.drawings.cartoons.paintings.perhaps??

2011-02-04T21:31:00.001+08:00

i miss drawing.i used to draw a lot when i was a kid.most of them are cartoons.better start again.in fact,i had start drawing again early this year.where i draw most of my masterpieces on walls and tables in KTT.a good way to promote my cartoons isn it?maybe i'll post some of them some time.i'm having a thought of trying some paintings too.how about that?

two great news

2011-01-27T23:11:00.000+08:00

two BIG things happened to me today.GOD had blessed me today with such great news.

1.IELTS result was very relieving

2.Nancy had given birth to her baby.thinking of naming it as Ronnie (ronnie james dio) if it is a male.and Joan (joan jett) if it is a female

ALHAMDULILLAH!!

the story of the hamsters (tribute to sid and nancy)

2011-01-27T20:26:00.001+08:00

i took pictures of sid and nancy.sorry for the late post.so here it is.enjoy!though,i can only give you the link to those pictures.tired of waiting to upload photos.

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=195136920499359&set=a.195136783832706.53459.100000091562779#!/album.php?fbid=195136783832706&id=100000091562779&aid=53459

dont forget to read the caption ok.its actually a story line.linked to each other.put up some comments if you like peeps! :)

a night like this

2011-01-20T03:46:00.001+08:00

a night like this
such a lost if it u miss
look out your window
and wash away your sorrow

see the round full moon
you'll be smiling soon
so bright,so white
you'll know right away everything is gonna be alright
it smiles to you,smiles for you
and i bet you'll be smiling too

look at the stars twinkle
they're blinking making you giggle

dont make me start on the wind
gentle and cold makes you grin
such a friendly breeze
it'll send you a romantic flying kiss
breathe in,breathe deep
it touches not only your skin but the heart so deep

you'll surely gonna miss
such a beautiful night it is

adibarifin

whats left behind

2011-01-17T21:03:00.001+08:00

whats left behind were dark memories
to be reminded,never indeed,never intended
keep it far in the dark forest
so it wont come again with such a mess

whats left behind will always haunts you
never the remedy,seems more to hurt you
heart of stone,let you be
never stick a stain will be

never walk through it,always over it
look up to the stars
may you free from wounds and scars
walk forward,with straight face
walk hard with tightly gripped fist
cause whats left behind let it be left behind

rise of the fallen loser

2011-01-01T03:08:00.001+08:00

so he did fell.fell flat right on his chubby ugly pimpled face.smudge of blood on his cheeks.little pieces of rocks all over his face and sweaty palms.he could taste the salty bits of sands in his dry mouth.by now his tears have already dried.he had stop crying."this can't go on.it must stop", he said to himself.beating his chest.

he tries to stand up.he grip his hand.grip it tight.but his hands are shaking.he forces himself to get up.he put his fists onto the ground.pushing his body up by his strong solid knuckle.with all his might.he's struggling.never before had he struggle like this.

he's ascending.inch by inch.his biceps are cramping.but he's still on the go.he keeps on pushing.until he has stand on his two limped legs.he knew he could do it.and he did it.he did it well.for he has changed.changed for a good.changed for a better tomorrow.changed for a better him.changed for things to change.

he was reborn.with stronger spirit.more passionate will.a spirit to become success.a will to become a better person.so he walks ahead.strengthen his legs to take every step forward.never to look back to his pitiful and pathetic pasts,but only to carry them as they made him nothing but wiser and stronger.

from now on, his priority is his study.cause that's the only thing that's left for him to care about.cause it means a lot,not just for him,but for everyone around him.his parents,his teachers,and his friends.fuck everything else.who cares if everyone thinks that he's a loser.a joke.a nerd.or a geek.they don't know him.so why on earth should he care?

as i said : he's CHANGED.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

tale of the falling loser

2010-12-30T02:16:00.000+08:00

He's falling.way down below towards the lowest ground.may be even lower than the lowest ground.falling fast.without even a thin helpless twig to hold on to.falling faster every second.

his life is falling apart.getting worse by each day.he watch and just able to watch.

studies were just like eating corns.he eats and poops it them out.never really digest them.grades were down.and seem to stay that way.friends are far away.and getting further and further.he refused to call people around him as friends.not that they treat him badly.but he never believes them like he believed his friends.his cell phone is a dull machine.silent most of the time.never brings heart-warming texts or exciting calls besides from his families.the only entertainment he gets is from his Facebook account though the fact that it too is leaving him behind,alone.

what a loser.pathetic.he's thinking of giving up.giving all up,including his life.he doesn't give a shit anymore to any fucking thing.he's thinking of getting high.growing up as a broken man.

serves him right.

yeah!serves him right for being such a loser.always blaming this and that for everything and just give up when everything is shaking.he never saw a brighter path.never really did try to find it.he'll never change and he never will if he keep on living with that pussy attitude.

thousands of times he read motivational posts on the net.and thousands more times did he said his so-called words of wisdom to help others up.but this time.this time he can't even help himself.he can't stand on his own feet.he doesn't even know what his problems are.he had lost the thing he had treasured most,his own biography.

he knew he should do something.fast!and something came up to his confused and empty head.something recalled from his past.a sentence.a very good sentence.several times did he heard it during his school life.then it pops!pops right in front of his big round pair of eyes.there it is.the solution.he needs to CHANGE!

because:

FOR THINGS TO CHANGE, HE MUST CHANGE FIRST!!

lunch with adela

2010-12-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

i spent just one hour with adela.a great timing it was that i arrived just a few minutes before it was break time for her.so i got the chance to accompany her for lunch.the special thing about it was that its been a really long time since i last went out with a girl.almost a year i guess.and suprisingly, the hour went fine.really fine.we chatted a lot.i thought i would get awkward.but i am grateful that all was well.

so,been looking forward to meet her again before her semester break ends.ok dela?? :)

Double trouble

2010-12-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

great showmanship.great songs.great night.i knew right away that my rm60 was spent for the right thing.we got in late because wafie and i came late.we thought that it was such a huge and stupid waste if you got special VIP tickets that allow you and your friends to see Search and Wings to play live 3 metres away from you,but you came in late and all the other regular ticket holders will take your place.however we managed to get to the front of the stage after few songs.they got fence surrounding the special ticket holders.so regular ticket holders will never got the chance to go any further than behind the scenery of the special ticket holders' butt.BOOOOO!!

the concert started late.at about 9pm the MCs started to show themselves and making jokes.then the opening act was lead by hillary and sham with their guitar solos performance.then azlan and the typewriter took their place with two songs.both from Search.

the real show started as Search walked out to the stage.the first song was Balada Pemuzik Jalanan which was my favourite.and they really digged it.after 2 songs,it was Wings' turn to show what they can do.the event went along with the same procedure.they both performed consecutively.

at the final half hours of the show,they started duet performance.all the members of Search and Wings took part.both drummers hitting their drums,both lead guitarists shredding their guitars,both bassist running their fingers on the bass,both vocalists singing to their lungs,and all that at the same time.that was really awesome!!

there was a time when Joe plucked Din's guitar and Din plucked joe's guitar.and i was like,was that even possible?

i can say that the performance was electrifying that night.and it really did.for real!some of us can feel the electricity flowed through our body connecting to each other.and its not a hyperbola that i wrote just now just to get you interested.no!its FOR REAL!!they were really electricity flowing through us.i think they were something wrong with the fence surrounding us.maybe there were electricity leak.thank god we are still alive.

Awie did some stupid things on the stage.he said "ce cite,ce cite" (his line in Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah).and all the crowd did the hand motion like the faggot in the movie did, rather than a rock hand sign.there were several times when Awie did a pose like a girl.pose like a cute girl in the middle of a head banging rock song??

overall,it was GREAT!better than Rock the World i guess.

ALAMAK!!

2010-12-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

ALAMAK - salam feat altimet

Alamak alamak alamak
Ala alamak
Alamak alamak alamak
Ala alamak
Alamak aku terjatuh dalam perigi
Tiada siapa tahu
Ketakutan ku bersendirian
Check kaki tangan kiri kanan
Semuanya okay tapi
Cuma tak pasti samada kepala okay
Ternampak dua tiga buku di sini

Warnanya berbeza isinya sama
Tajuknya lain cintanya sama
Oh kenapa tak kita bersama
Alamak alamak alamak
Ala alamak
Alamak alamak alamak
Ala alamak
Aku belek buku dari dekat
Aku nampak sama
Kamu jenguk buku dari jauh
Kamu nampak beza
Kamu tengok cetek
Kamu nampak hanya nama
Kerana si ular sudah bikin kamu leka
Kita sudah lupa hanya satu pereka
Kita sudah lupa boleh makan satu meja
Hingga kisah benar kita gelar cereka
Kita lupa kita
Hanya ingat kami dan mereka
Dan bagaimana boleh melarat begini
Ku kata
Alamak
Kau kurang memahami
Jadi kita semua sebut sekali lagi
Aku belek buku dari dekat
Aku nampak sama
Kamu jenguk buku dari jauh
Kamu nampak beza
Kamu tengok cetek
Kamu nampak hanya nama
Kerana si ular sudah bikin kamu leka
Kita sudah lupa hanya satu pereka
Kita sudah lupa boleh makan satu meja
Hingga kisah benar kita gelar cereka
Kita lupa kita
Hanya ingat kami dan mereka
Alamak alamak alamak
Ala alamak (lebih banyak yang sama)
Alamak alamak alamak
Ala alamak (daripada yang berbeza)
Alamak aku terjaga dalam perigi
Ingin ku ceritakan apa ku mimpi tadi
Kelam kabut capai tali terus daki pergi lari
Apabila ku tiba
Ku ceritakan kepada semua
Mereka tak percaya
Dianggap aku berjenaka
Mentang-mentang ku tak berkasut
Hanya disarungkan selipar
Selipar
Oh kenapa tak
Tak kita
Alamak alamak alamak
Ala alamak (lebih banyak yang sama)
Alamak alamak alamak
Ala alamak (daripada yang berbeza)

too much!

2010-12-27T01:11:00.000+08:00

i have a lot to tell.a lot of excitements just for the last saturday.but too much to write with too little time.so the words are all messing up.so i'll post them another time.thanks to the people that made it happened :)

huge problem

2010-12-19T01:20:00.000+08:00

okay,i realize now that im having a huge problem.i cant communicate with girls anymore.felt awkward every time.ideas to continue a conversation were never there to help.then i would end up being silent or asking the same questions over and over again.i need to gain these skills.

i want my own

2010-12-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

kids are very cute when they say the darnest thing.being so honest and saying things grownups wouldnt,it makes me chuckle alone and laughing inside.of course i cant laugh out loud.kids will think that people like it when they do something not right,but still,funny.

we cant encourage them though its hillarious.we should teach them to be more polite but happy at the same time.kids will follow what you order them to do if you can approach them and tell them nicely.it is never wise nor necessary to be as fierce as a tiger or as loud as a duck to teach a small child.

recently i met kids for several times.they were awesome kids.very cute.very funny.and active too.some are manja too.and i've found that i really do like kids.and hope that they like me too.i think that i would love to have one of my own.and i really think,no,i am sure that i want to be a paediatrician soon

maybe i'll include some funny dialogues i had with the kids on my next post :)

back in the camp part 1

2010-12-13T13:33:00.001+08:00

back in the camp
we thought we were champs
but rather chimps
compared to those whimps
many perceptions toward one another
yet many more respects built the days after

for my whole life
i hate politics and what they left
thought it only brings disasters and hatreds
now i know it was the thing that we needed
only some people that pollute it
people whom never really understand it
they play them as they knew it well
but they were all stupid as well
played with our emotions and minds
just to get what they always want

perlembagaan is always easy
just to read them all is a bit dizzy
it was written for decades
all we have to do is obey it
dont ask questions and stop complaining
be one and stop fighting
rather better we act the same
together we strive for our country's name

back in BTN
they taught us boxin'
jag jag up down and block
one two one two uppercut and hook
now dont mess with us cause youre gonna get it
we float like a butterfly and sting like a bee,so beat it

adibarifin

my randomly arranged top 50

2010-12-11T01:32:00.001+08:00

this is my top 50 :) but actually they may had been arranged in an incorrect order.i just put up whats on my mind

reaggae
groovy basslines
having a conversation without any awkward feeling
saying something cool or smart
finding a bassline or chords of a song
write my own song
doodles
writing without any writers' block
rides.any ride
mammals
write poems
rage against the machine
cheap band tshirts
complete answering exam papers without leaving any blanks
being noticed
playing my bass guitar
watching disney's classic cartoon movies like lion king
watching pixar and disneys' animations
sleeping in the car
stage performances
acoustic performances
yasmin ahmad's films
mamat khalid's films
afdlin shauki's films,songs and actings
roti kaya
maggie kari kuah sikit
my maroon codroy short
long sleeve tshirts
getting text messages
noticing theres a pile of notifications on my fb
will smith's actings
old school hip hop (beastie boys,run dmc,public enemy)
sheila majid
sex pistols
nora danish
kebaya nyonya
the smell of petrols and marker pens
tapping my shoes making drum beats
sneeze loudly in a class or assembly
mcflurry cornetto chocolate
cheesecakes
mom's bakeries
letting my hamsters crawling on me
making faces in pictures
read english novel (recently)
to sleep easily without having to roll on the bed for half an hour
menyampuk di status fb orang lain
making my friends annoyed
swimming
the feeling after completing assignments
waking up from a nice dream as soon as it really ends.not in the middle of it

cant really depends on those up there though.they were randomly listed.
munirah ibrahim,brapa marks ni?haha :D

a great day today was

2010-12-01T03:46:00.001+08:00

today was a great day i may say.i went out with my friends.there were 4 of us; maula,bok,am and i.we went to the cinema at KLCC. thought Pavilion will surely be packed by those 'budak sekolah'.its school holiday.so,surely.

so we watched Harry Potter.the movie was okay.not too great,not too poor.but its kind of slow i think.maybe because im not a Harry Potter's fan nor a follower of their series or novels.but one thing for sure; it took us 2.5 hours and we didnt even notice time went that fast.that means the movie was somehow entertaining.and its a good thing.

i bought a novel.for the first time in my whole 19 years of life i bought a novel.a real one.not a too-short one like i did before; Love That Dog.this time i bought The White Tiger.and as im writing this post,i realised that the two novels that i bought myself have the title related to animals.DOG and TIGER.okay,the illustration on the cover really caught my eyes.plus,the author is an Asian.Indian more specific.i read a few pages and i found it interesting.the language is easy for me to digest and the writing style is calm and honest.

at first i was in dilemma in buying either The White Tiger or another novel entitled Rojak wrote by a local author.it was actually a collection of very short stories.when i said very short i meant very very short.a story only last for about two pages at most.so i decided to buy the White Tiger as it seemed to be more inspirational and matured.

and just now,about fifteen minutes before i started writing this post i went for a reflexology treatment with my parents.it was very calming and relaxing after an outing with friends.and to add more excitement,an amoi from China gave me the massage.hahaha :)

i feel like a father

2010-11-29T18:50:00.001+08:00

having these hamsters isnt easier as i can remember the last time i had them.i feel like i have children already.waking up at 4 am just to notice that they were fighting and screeching at each other.its like in the movie where parents wake up in the middle of the night noticing their baby is crying and hungry or whatever.it puts me into a situation where i must be responsible.and thats a pro for me though it adds another commitment and another burden.i will take fullest care and attention to my dearest hamsters.at least i will try to.

just the other day,my hamsters been fighting.its just a guess because i found scars on the smaller one.before that,i heard them screeching and shrieking.so i guess they must have been fighting before.i had to bathe both of them.the smaller one named Sid had some blood stains on its fur.he was very comot.

so i decided to make an observation to find out whether they were really fighting or not.but strangely,the larger one named Nancy did not even touched the little guy.but Sid still shrieking.so the investigation is still on..

little white fury balls (tribute to Sid and Nancy)

2010-11-25T21:07:00.001+08:00

furry balls furry balls
little white furry balls
so little so white
so cute and so bright

eat,eat you furry balls
eat until you're like a round football
run,run,run as you will
keep on running on that small wheel

rm150 flew away
never mind i may say
name you guys Sid and Nancy
but Sid,please don't kill my Nancy

you're the star of your movie

2010-11-23T13:09:00.001+08:00

i've been thinking to myself lately.about judgement.not the judgement day.but the issue of 'to judge' and 'judged'.

what you do,whatever you do people always judge.they judge your personality from your doings.its totally annoying,yet very LOGIC.

what you do represents the real you inside.but you can always lie.you can always act differently.just dont get caught,if you're lying.a nice nerd can always lie and act cool or gangsta just to fit with others.just to make friends.its just the matter of how well you lie.the greater the lies the more friends you'll get.but if you're busted,thats a pain in the ass.not only your ass but the asses of the ones you lie too.

"but people wont notice me if i dont act cool"

its simple actually.just live your life the most honest way you can.people will notice you the way you are,the kindness in you,the original you.its impossible if people ignore you unless you're a big jerk that live in your own box and wont go out.

"people judge me without even know me"

like i said before,people see what they see.and people judge what they see.so show them a little respect.i beleive that every single person has a bright and noble side in their heart.so show them.dont hide them.show them to those who dont know you.after that,then you'll have the chance to show your other so called dark side.but its your risk.you may lose your friends there if they dont like them.i just say this for those who dont want to be judged as a jerk by strangers.

"the hell!i can do whatever i want"

then go.dont tell me that.just do it.its your life.your the star of your own movie.every one is a star of their own movie.so who am i to tell you what to do.everyone has their own movie.theyre the director,the writer and the star of their own particular movie.so do what you want.but just dont get mad if youre condemned by the critics because of your lousy,awful film.the've been watching you.and if they dont like your movie,they can say what they want.theyre the audience.

the point is; if you want a good movie review,make a good movie.be nice.be true.i didnt say anything about "only GOD can judge you".because thats HIS job.we human should not disturb that.the thing that GOD judge.im talking about the ethics between human.within the community.

im goin ol skool

2010-11-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

"i used to talk like mime,now i talk in rhymes"

ok.now im in to a lilttle bit of hip hop if you noticed.but not too hip hop.dressing like one?way out from my imaginations.i just like to hear their songs.not all rappers satisfied my sense of music.let me name some.some that i heard lately.BEASTIE BOYS,RUN DMC,PUBLIC ENEMY,MC HAMMER,TUPAC,MALIQUE,ZACH DE LA ROCHA. they bring out the ol skool tunes. i liked the way they rap.theyre totally different than any gangsta rappers nowadays.try some of them.you'll know what im saying here.

formspring.me

2010-11-10T23:47:00.001+08:00

curious? Ask me anything http://formspring.me/adibarifin

the battle of cuteness!

2010-11-06T23:29:00.001+08:00

ok,heres the deal.i am having a battle of cuteness between my dear friend whom thinks she's cuter than me; Adela. ;p i need your vote here so she can treat me.so vote now people.think hard,but dont think too hard ok :) thanks!! remember,every vote counts.

the value of cuteness is in your hands!!

tribute to Kuda II

2010-11-04T18:32:00.000+08:00

hidup hanya sekali
mati itu pasti
tapi biar mati berbudi
kau takkan kesali
namamu tetap di hati
bermain di bibir doa

hidup hanya sekali
biar jadi indah
dipenuhi bunga-bunga cinta
mewarnai jalan kau ke sana
biar kau bangun
dengan haruman semangat
untuk terus berjuang
dan terus ceria

jangan sesekali kau kesali
apa yang telah kau lalui
semua menjadi bait-bait
dalam kitab peribadi
mengajar erti ketabahan
menjadi bahan rujukan
menjadi suatu perkongsian

jangan kau risau
jangan kau tangisi
usah risau kami di sini
pergilah,pergi syurga menanti
segala tangis dan tawa
sentiasa di memori

alfatihah

adibarifin

tribute to Kuda

2010-11-04T18:17:00.000+08:00

Al-fatihah.

Ya Allah,kau tempatkan lah Mohd Syazwan Asyraf a.k.a. Kuda dalam kalangan orang yang beriman.sesungguhnya beliau telah banyak menyenangkan hati orang di sekelilingnya.kau tabahkanlah hati ahli keluarga serta sahabt-sahabtnya.amin~

just heard an awful news about a friend of mine.seems that Allah loves him more and took him away from us.from what i heard,he died at 4 pm just now.for info please visit the link. http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=127616040625316

hearing this kind of news.about a death of someone near us.someone we knew.someone we used to have a big laugh with and share joys it made me think of how short life is.and how death can take you away at any time.

i know.we live once.and we will die,once.one day,its a sure.so living once made me have this kind of thinking to live my life truly,throughly and meaningfully.before my time come,i just wanted to say something important.something that ive been working on.something that ive been having in mind and really hope it would be a success.something that might make me satisfy if my soul is taken tomorrow.

one thing that i wanted is, for me to be remembered.remembered as a nice person.as a son.as a nice student.a nice friend.a nice person.nice.thats all.not great,not famous.but just nice.but sure,its not something that we could ask for.you cant just ask anybody to say that we are nice.it is something that we must obtained.a title.

every each day, i woke up with a will to be a better person.better at anything.to improve anything that can be improved.my studies,my relationships,my prayers.

so people, before my time comes (because we dont know when), i would like to apologize to all of you if i was such a jerk,loser,useless or anything synonym, to you.i never meant to be those things.those awful things.

may my hope and dreams here be blessed.amin~ :)

secret admirer

2010-11-02T01:42:00.000+08:00

just the other day i was hearing to my playlist and suddenly this song pops out.its been so long since i last heard it.i love this song so much.it makes me feel so mellow as i was lying in a garden full of flowers with tha wind blowing gentle.fuuuhhh...fuuuhhhh. :)

chain of fool

2010-11-01T01:00:00.001+08:00

greediness leads to options leads to uncertain leads to confusions leads to nowhere leads to giving up leads to less commitment leads jealousy leads to loneliness leads to seeking leads to trying leads to greediness.

and the cycle keeps on going.its a curse.

im open to help :)

2010-10-31T04:12:00.000+08:00

few days ago,i gave an opinion on a friend's problem.a good opinion i may say myself.

and she gave a positive respond to it.somehow,i felt happy and satisfied.to help people.just by typing few words.

back in school days,i used to hear a lot of problems from friends.but i didnt helped much.because i was lacking of words to say.words that can help them.words that can inspire them.i only added stupid words that make them think im not listening, like "urm...", "betul juga", "macam mana?ulang balik".i wanted to help.like really really wanted to help.but im not the kind that responds to something important spontaneously.

so now,with well developed medium like blogs and facebook,i think i found the way how to help others with their troubles.

so friends,im offering you to share your problems.i'll try my best to help and give wise opinions. :)

i think its time now (tribute to the same someone)

2010-10-29T16:06:00.000+08:00

for ages this heart had suffered
for ages more this heart had waited
holding on to a rusty rod of confusion
waiting for the time for these tired hands to let it go

tired of playing
tired of of hiding
the burden that kept holding my feet
hold them thight to the ground
keeping me away and astray

now is the time
no more playing
no more hiding
the longer i wait
the more annoying i could become
stalking from far
too coward to face the truth
the truth that kept haunting
with more confusion it brings

whatever that i'd get back
is not the true question
its the courage to say it
the real matter it is
i think im ready now
so make a wish and pray for me you should do
for i will do what i was supposed to do

i will tell you
yeah you..
that ive been liking you :)

adibarifin

crap!

2010-10-23T00:44:00.000+08:00

confuse,depressed
cant say it
neither do i understand
what this heart wants
it doesnt say anything
just the feelings that always disturbing

is this a God's guide
or just a satan's work
hunches without conclusions
leaving more confusions

sometimes i felt so happy
as a child given a candy
sometimes so down
way down below
where nothing can be seen
alone without help

sometimes i felt like cursing
without the reasons why
feels so angry
and now i feel angry
i need something to cool me down
pass my bass guitar please :)

adibarifin
p/s:sorry,its just a piece of crap.need to let it out

there'll always be sunshine

2010-10-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

one of the songs from Gerhana Ska Cinta that i adore.i love this song damn much.the lyrics are so motivating.and the melody and groove are awesome.makes you wanna dance.

I know how it feels like
Live in an empty life
No matter when or where you're standing at
You just can't bear all at once

Life teach us much lesson
With all the fears and tears
So never look back move on your step
I bet you'll never regret

Coz when the time has come
You know that you should just be strong
Forget about the time you've drown
To win is to get through the mount

When the most of time
You failed though you have tried so hard
It isn't time for you to cry
Coz you're about to reach the sky

I know how it feels like
Live in an empty life
No matter when or where you're standing at
You just can't bear all at once

Life teach us much lesson
With all the fears and tears
So never look back move on your step
I bet you'll never regret

I know how it feels like
Live in an empty life
No matter when or where you're standing at
You just can't bear all at once

Life teach us much lesson
With all the fears and tears
So never look back move on your step
I bet you'll never regret

KRU rules!

2010-10-13T16:12:00.000+08:00

i present to you Malaysia's version of Backstreet Boys.KRU!!
once they conquered malaysia's hiphop and RnB scene.they were very success and had a lot of fans.
other than numerous albums,they featured in many local films too like Metropolitan and AWAS!.
now,they only produce and write songs for new singers.most of the songs written by Edry KRU himself.also,they produce and direct films like Cicakman,Cicakman 2 and the latest; Magika. they even have their own production company.they had brought many innovations and new ideas in local entertainment industry.

apa saja untukmu

awas!they got a movie on this song entitled AWAS!

Fanatik

i've got a little teddy (tribute to my mom)

2010-10-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

i've got a little teddy
came from my mommy
sure it sounds girly
but its not a biggie
cause its from my mommy

curly soft furs
with two little round eyes
black and shiny
and the word "happiness" on its yellow baby T

now i can hang it on my cupboard
cause i wont hug it
its so little
and im not a girl

got a little teddy
it came with the groceries
Ash and Dalvin noticed
but im not that embarassed
cause its just a little teddy
and it came from my mommy
you may say it sucks
but i say "thank you MAK!!"

adibarifin

life as in the grocery stores

2010-10-11T01:45:00.001+08:00

so confuse which to choose
the more you see the more you confuse
they're all the same only the name
but the best is always the aim

different people with different styles
different hearts with different desires
in millions of different flowers
walk far enough to seek yours

better hurry better quick
like a rat except the squeek
dont wait too long to make a move
or you only end up as a moose

still walking cant make decision
cause everything just aint good enough
walk out the door with no doubt or suspicion
other grocery stores may have what you love

adibarifin

hidden feeling (tribute to someone)

2010-10-08T19:52:00.001+08:00

got this feeling
been hiding within
for real or just playing
it keeps lingering between

this awful feeling
keeps on walking
from right to left
makes me see bitter sight of jealousy itself

never certain of the result

worth would be it

or just breaks more heart

can never be sure of saying it

i know ive been lying

saying theres another flower

i never thought that you'll invite this feeling

now that im such a stalker

cant hold on to it
must force it out
cant live with it
got to shout it out loud

you there missy
cant you see
im showing sweet hints
or were they just too thin?

adibarifin